So today has been a year since my procedure. I have so many mixed emotions and don't really know how to feel today. I don't regret my decision it was the best thing for me at the time. There have been so may things that have happened in the past year. The abortion completely ruined my relationship. I understand why he was mad but what I don't think he will ever completely understand is its not easy for me either. I cant help but wonder what my baby would have looked like if I would have had a boy or girl. I have so many questions and so many what ifs. I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to since only a few people know and I'm not comfortable talking to any of them about it. I never realized a decision that I completely agree with would still haunt me a year later. To my baby I have to say that I am sorry and I do love you. I'm sorry if you feel that I gave up on you. I wanted to be the best mommy I could be and I don't think at the time I could have been that for you. RIP little one
Hugs.. I know how you feel. I aborted a baby who's due date was today 6 yrs ago and today is also my daughters birthday. Its still very hard. I can't really talk to anyone about it either. If you ever wanna chat, I'm here..