Time to move forward!

So this year I am starting new. DS is 5 and starting school. As of tomorrow I start a full time job. I am planning my wedding, and as of today I am losing weight. I have decided that TTC is going on hold. It is taking a huge toll on me, and even though I planned on starting back up again in July, I think for my own mental and physical health it's best to just let it be and work on me.

I need to realize that god gave me a beautiful family, and if that family doesn't want to grow than I have to be happy with what I have because some people have no one.... my goals/resolutions are very clear to me now. I need to appreciate my life and not want more, because what I have is suffice, and for myself I am going to lose 15-20 lbs.

So I am officially out of the TTC mind state and ready to make my home life more fulfilling, have more fun with my family, and work on getting myself in shape. Wish me luck ladies.

(and if anyone has any dieting or fitness tips please feel free to fill me in)  

Good Luck lady!   Some times it is better to ease your mind and let life come as it is for a little while. It took us a little while TTC our youngest DD and she came as a blessing when we weren't trying so hard. It gave us time to really settle down and focus on us and our oldest daughter and take her on more road trips and enjoy things.

Thank you. Yes I feel like time is flying by with DS, and I am finally going back to work, full time too, so I realize how much time I am going to lose with him. I just need to not be so focused on what I don't have and more on what I do. I am tired of being depressed. Time to let go and start fresh.

That's awesome, and I think your new outlook is really great!  

Thank you!