The last straw

This post is mainly just a sad vent. I have no one to talk to and I feel more alone than I ever have.. I decided finally today that my marriage is NEVER going to work. Everytime my husband gets angry he says horrible things to me calls me whore, bitch, smurf, and says how worthless I am. I used to model and so hes always saying you know youre not as pretty as you think you are. That I have taken for a while but lately hes been saying how he wants to wash his hands of this baby we tried so hard for.. wants to sign his rights over all to me in a divorce. He is DEAD serious. He signed his last two sons over to his ex wife last year.. Is it me or does he just seem incapable of loving anyone but himself?? WHO does this to thier children? how could I be so damn stupid, anyway I am just so hurt at first I wanted to drive out to the house and try to talk to him or beg him to care more then I realized wait a minute, I cant make anyone Love me or thier child its time to let him go and not look back cause its time to do whats best for this baby.. Just a smurf stick of a day finally realizing that I was stupid to ignore the red flags at the start and now its my fault this baby won't have a father.

I'm sorry, get the hell out of there. If he abandoned two kids before why did you try to have a baby with him anyways? You should have known the chance was there.

What a true smurf!!! Don't let him bring you down, I am sure you are beautiful on the inside as well as outside and you do not need to put up with that smurf. Just because you forsee the baby "not having a father" doesn't mean you can't do it by yourself if you choose.   Raising a child is no cake walk but it is very rewarding and that baby will give you a love that is unimaginable so don't let your DH bring you down. Men can really smurf the bed on a lot of things.

Quoting Loka Lokita (15):" I'm sorry, get the hell out of there. If he abandoned two kids before why did you try to have a baby with him anyways? You should have known the chance was there."

I know... He didnt actually sign them over until I was 3 months pregnant with this child. One day he ws just like I am signing them all over to my ex cause she wants too much in child support and shes a smurf.. I really struggled with it and even tried to talk him out of it.. At christmas he called her and asked if he could come over to drop off gifts.. Guess what she said?? HELL NO..

Quoting Laventure_Adventure:" What a true smurf!!! Don't let him bring you down, I am sure you are beautiful on the inside as well ... [snip!] ... will give you a love that is unimaginable so don't let your DH bring you down. Men can really smurf the bed on a lot of things."

I have never really been a single mama but I dont have a choice now so I am hoping for the best and plan to work as hard as I can.

Quoting DaniKayT:" I have never really been a single mama but I dont have a choice now so I am hoping for the best and plan to work as hard as I can."

If you need help women's shelters generally are willing to help you get back on your feet, childcare and birthing classes( if you don't already take them ) are extremely helpful. Also sign up with local mom groups in your area and that will build your friendship with others and you'll have other women who you can talk to if you need to.  

Quoting Laventure_Adventure:" If you need help women's shelters generally are willing to help you get back on your feet, childcare ... [snip!] ... in your area and that will build your friendship with others and you'll have other women who you can talk to if you need to.  "

Thank you I will look into it all.. it cant hurt.

<blockquote><b>Quoting DaniKayT:</b>" I know... He didnt actually sign them over until I was 3 months pregnant with this child. One day he ... [snip!] ... him out of it.. At christmas he called her and asked if he could come over to drop off gifts.. Guess what she said?? HELL NO.."</blockquote>




You should try to get in contact with her. No matter what your baby is her childrens sibling and they all deserve to know each other!

I am sorry you're dealing with this...men can be smurfs sometimes!

Quoting ~Raylan's Mama~:" <blockquote><b>Quoting DaniKayT:</b>" I know... He didnt actually sign them over until ... [snip!] ... sibling and they all deserve to know each other! I am sorry you're dealing with this...men can be smurfs sometimes!"

She hates me.. Shes a peach too she always saying how her boys will never want to know me cause I look "mexican" I am not hispanic but even if I was thats RUDE to say.. Shes 15 years older than me but she acts 15 years younger.. ugh what a white trash mess I got myself into at the age of 28!!! I knew better dang it!!!

<blockquote><b>Quoting DaniKayT:</b>" She hates me.. Shes a peach too she always saying how her boys will never want to know me cause I look ... [snip!] ... me but she acts 15 years younger.. ugh what a white trash mess I got myself into at the age of 28!!! I knew better dang it!!!"</blockquote>




Well that sucks   With that being the situation, my only advice is never lie to your child about those siblings.

I wish you the best of luck. Parenting in itself isn't easy, but it is very rewarding. My favorite part is when he learned hugs and kisses...it's the best feeling in the world when your baby gives you a hug and squeezes tight!! <3