Quoting Marlee*TTC*:" And I am still suicidal. I find I quite funny that the DR I saw makes deals with his patients...that's ... [snip!] ... I have taken 1 pint of Vodka, 70mg of Baclofen, 2 Tylenol 3, and am about to take 2 Xanax and slit my wrists...I WANT help!! "
Well, I didn't bother to read everything in this thread. Because honestly, from what I've read so far, the drama here is not important to me right now. But for your situation OP, I really hope you got to the ER. Someone mentioned that you had (I think) and I hope you do.
I don't know your full story, but I know what it's like to simply want to die. If you come back and you ever need to vent or someone to talk to, I'm here. I'll admit, I won't always have the answers. But I can do something I've always wanted when I felt that way, I can listen. Wish you the best.