My angel who passed away at 9 months old (SIDS)

She was almost 9 months old and it was dec 11, 2012, I found her in her crib not breathing. I had a panic attack. My housemate called 911, as i pulled her out of her crib and did cpr on her. 5-7 minutes later, felt like eternity. The ambulance came and detectives. I went with the ambulance my mind still not quite wrapped around what was going on. They couldnt find a pulse right away. I sat in a room in the back corner of Rady Children's Hospital in San Diego. I wasn't sure what to do, but in my head I knew what would happen...

I had to call red cross to get my husband out of work, him being in the navy and all. I called my mom, and my mother in law. My mom didnt answer. But my mother was on her way as soon as i told her, her living three hours away makes things like this hard. My husband showed up an hour later. They had machines breathing for her, and pumping her heart, using medication to get her blood pressure normal.

We saw her at one point, she was so quiet, so lifeless, so not like my baby should be. The little girl i wanted to see who would laugh at anything, the one who would attempt to crawl... I would have given anything to hear her cry at least. My gorgeous daughter Dahlia Marie had to go in for a MRI to see if she had gotten brain damage or if she was brain dead. It was the longest 2 hours of my life. We were told her brain cells were dying, she was practically brain dead. My husband and me and my family were in utter devastation. Couldnt stop crying. We were given options of letting her stay on life support, or of letting her body go when it was ready. We didnt want our baby's body to suffer being forced to stay alive, so we decided we would let her go when we were meant too.

We got hit with a rough thing...Organ donation? Was it really necessary...was it something we wanted to do. Honestly I thought about it, but her body would have to stay preserved, stay beating...I couldnt let that happen. My husband and I declined...they didnt look very nice to begin with, which doesnt mean all are like that. She had stopped breathing 30-45 minutes before i found her....she was just sleeping one minute and then i check on her and she isnt breathing at all.

My daughter passed away on dec 12,2012 at 2:15 a.m. My husband and I held her for the last time. I world had broken that day. Its hard to lose a baby so hard

I am utterly speechless... all I can say is I am so so so so sorry.. My heart aches right now for you and your family.

I am soo sorry for your loss.

I am so sorry mama. I can not imagine what you are going through.  

I am so sorry sweetheart. I'll pray for you and your familys healing. *hugs*

So sorry for your loss  

:'( I am so sorry, I was unaware that they can get sids at almost a year old.
So terrible. I can not even express how sorry I am.

I am so sorry for your loss.

I can't stop crying, my heart breaks for you. Words can't express how truly sorry I am. I hope you are able to find peace within your heart, and that you will heal. It will take time. RIP little Angel.

I am very sorry for your loss. It is my greatest fear to lose my child to SIDS and I couldn't imagine going through what you went through. My prayers are with you and your family.

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you guys and you will be in my prayers. RIP Little One.

  I am so sorry for your loss, I cannot even imagine  

I am so very sorry for your loss. I will definitely say a prayer for you and your family.

One thing though that came as a surprise, I recently found out I am pregnant again. 7 weeks and like 5 days. Around the time my daughter passed, i had conceived another child with my husband. A miracle but at the same time it is so hard. But it is nice to have people that are praying for me. Thank you all

I am so so so sorry