re: I failed, and am disappointed in myself

Quoting The Doctor:" I understand. I quit a bunch of times... it's the mental withdrawals that really suck hardcore. Have ... [snip!] ... I hate 'em, but helped my best friend and her BF quit, and they both smoked waaaay more and for way longer than I did."

Hated it! It didn't feel like I was REALLY smoking. And that's what I enjoy about smoking. That little sting in the back of your throat feeling? Lol. I sound like a crazy lady.

Quoting mama3trish:" Hey you went 12 hours-gotta give yourslef some credit. Try again next week. I'm not even committing to ... [snip!] ... I'm not even committing to quitting until my youngest starts school-not with the stress in my life, because I know I will fail."

I'm getting divorced, and while I know that it's not an excuse to smoke, it's comforting in a way. Like I smoke to escape my divorce, and it helps me calm down when I'm feeling sad or stressed. Why can't oxygen do that!?

Quoting Vile Tramp:" Hated it! It didn't feel like I was REALLY smoking. And that's what I enjoy about smoking. That little sting in the back of your throat feeling? Lol. I sound like a crazy lady. "

No, you don't sound crazy. I love that feeling, too.  

Quoting lolajessup:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Vile Tramp:</b>" The only reason I've quit in the past was ... [snip!] ... stay away. Just knowin they're there? Then you don't feel deprived but you aren't giving in? Idk if it work just a suggestion."

Idk I could try it! Thanks.


Maybe I can just hide them, so that I know they are here, but don't know where? Well i will know where, so I'll have someone else hide them.

<blockquote><b>Quoting The Doctor:</b>" No, you don't sound crazy. I love that feeling, too.  "</blockquote>




OT, But I didnt see you were pregnant! Congrats

Quoting The Doctor:" No, you don't sound crazy. I love that feeling, too.  "

Glad I'm not the only one! Plus cigarette's aren't meant to taste like Orange Mango. Lol.

But another reason why I know I have so much anxiety surrounding quitting is I just lost 20 pounds since Dan left. ( So November) and I know when I quit I binge. And I don't' want to gain that weight back.

Quoting °NoName™°¯\_(ツ)_/¯:" <blockquote><b>Quoting The Doctor:</b>" No, you don't sound crazy. I love that feeling, too.  "</blockquote> OT, But I didnt see you were pregnant! Congrats"

Thank you, darlin'! I'm very excited.  

Quoting °NoName™°¯\_(ツ)_/¯:" <blockquote><b>Quoting The Doctor:</b>" No, you don't sound crazy. I love that feeling, too.  "</blockquote> OT, But I didnt see you were pregnant! Congrats"

 

You're due the day after my sister!  . ( Her first baby, woot for being an aunt!)

Quoting Vile Tramp:" Glad I'm not the only one! Plus cigarette's aren't meant to taste like Orange Mango. Lol. But another ... [snip!] ... just lost 20 pounds since Dan left. ( So November) and I know when I quit I binge. And I don't' want to gain that weight back. "

LMAO. No. Those flavor ones are dis-gus-ting.

Bah. I understand.   Smurfin' nicotine...

Quoting Vile Tramp:"   You're due the day after my sister!  . ( Her first baby, woot for being an aunt!)"

 

My sis just had her first baby in June! Being an aunt is awwwesome!

Quoting Vile Tramp:" I'm getting divorced, and while I know that it's not an excuse to smoke, it's comforting in a way. ... [snip!] ... way. Like I smoke to escape my divorce, and it helps me calm down when I'm feeling sad or stressed. Why can't oxygen do that!?"

I get it trust me. I quit (after smoking 15 years) with my first pregnancy until I stopped nursing her at 5 months, then started right after, and did that for the next two but nursed even longer. When my youngest started acting out and then was really ill (he had surgery and then found out he had autism) I just couldn't handle it and went to my old friend aka the cigarette,lol. I smoke menthols and do find that the vapour e-smokes (menthol flavor) give the sting in the throat. When I quit-and I will quit when I committ, I will use them, niccorette, and then change every habit I have-should be easy.....NOT!

Quoting The Doctor:" LMAO. No. Those flavor ones are dis-gus-ting. Bah. I understand.   Smurfin' nicotine..."

They really smurfing are! Like wtf. Some of them are just like.. Why?! Why would anyone want to smoke something that tastes like that?!

Quoting The Doctor:"   My sis just had her first baby in June! Being an aunt is awwwesome!"

YAY! That's what I like to hear.  . And congrats to her!

Quoting Vile Tramp:" YAY! That's what I like to hear.  . And congrats to her! "

She is so damn tiny, though. She's a tiny little peanut just like my sister... nothing like Ayanna. haha.

She's 6 months old and weighs like 14 pounds.  

Quoting mama3trish:" I get it trust me. I quit (after smoking 15 years) with my first pregnancy until I stopped nursing her ... [snip!] ... I quit-and I will quit when I committ, I will use them, niccorette, and then change every habit I have-should be easy.....NOT!"

I think that's the hardest part, that a lot of non smokers don't fully grasp. Smoking IS a habit. You build your DAY around smoking. Well if you are anything like I do, you do lol. You do certain activities while you smoke. So to break smoking is basically, to change your whole routine.