I had an abortion today

posted 22nd Jan
As the subject line reads, I had an abortion today and I didnt know who to tell. No one knew I was going in for the procedure, not even the father of the child. He didnt even know I was pregnant to begin with. This was my second abortion, although the previous involved medication, this procedure would be "in-clinic". I thought as I waited for my name to be called, could this be the last chance I have at having a child? Could this be a mistake? I am not sure I went into the procedure room 100% sure of my decision as I had done the first time. I was completely awake for the entire procedure and what a traumatizing scene it is. The room was frigid cold, completely sterile with odd machinery scattered throughout. In the matter of 2 minutes I was nude, strapped to the table and the procedure began. After what felt like minutes of intense pain it was over. I sat in the recovery room completely unemotional and detached from the whole situation. The women sitting next to me who had also undergone the same procedure was crying hysterically telling me cliche life quotes about the moment we were both in. She was surprised I wasnt bothered by the whole thing or the fact that I was awake the entire time, listening, watching and feeling. I went on with my day as if nothing had happened. I worked an entire shift the rest of the day and laughed and gossiped just like any other day. Is it wrong that I feel nothing or have no emotional reaction to what transpired this morning? This morning I was pregnant and tonight, its just me. I needed to get that out, say something, tell someone about what I did today cause to this hour no one I know has any idea what Ive been through today. Thanks for letting me vent tonight!
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I live in Japan
posted 22nd Jan
They made you get naked?Like...all the way?
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I have 3 kids & live in Los Angeles, California
posted 22nd Jan
hey, I don't have anything to say other than regardless of what you feel, don't beat yourself up. Remember to give yourself a break. It sounds like you made a good decision and I hope everything goes well for you.
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I have 1 child & live in Indiana
posted 22nd Jan
maybe you weren't 100% sure before going in, but it seems like you really knew what you needed to do.
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I have 3 kids & live in Illinois
posted 22nd Jan
<blockquote><b>Quoting Dr. Paradigm Shift:</b>" They made you get naked?Like...all the way? "</blockquote>




Very strange.
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posted 22nd Jan
It just sounds like you mentally detached yourself from the situation, to protect yourself. I do that with lots of situations. I don't think its wrong. Might just be your self conscious protecting you
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I have 3 kids & live in Pennsylvania
posted 22nd Jan
I should state I wasnt completely naked just from the waist down ....
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I live in Japan
posted 22nd Jan
Quoting Red Bottom:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Dr. Paradigm Shift:</b>" They made you get naked?Like...all the way? "</blockquote> Very strange."



Maybe she meant bottomless...that can feel very naked.

If they made you get totally nude, OP, I'd be writing an angry letter.
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I have 3 kids & live in Los Angeles, California
posted 22nd Jan
Did theu litrally strap u down naked? That sounds scary!
I think a mass range of feelings or detachment would be normal after an abortion i dont know from experience tho so i cant offer much advice.
Hope your feeling ok x
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I'm due June 28th (it's a surprise), have 2 kids & live in Australia
posted 22nd Jan
Quoting Lex53943:" I should state I wasnt completely naked just from the waste down ...."


Ohhhhhhkay. Whew.


ANYWAY, sounds like you did what you needed to do & now you can focus on healing up. It's pretty normal to feel weird for a few days after. Your body's balancing itself out again.
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I have 3 kids & live in Los Angeles, California
posted 22nd Jan
I'm very sorry for what you've been through today. I hope you recover well.
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I have 1 child & live in Missouri
posted 22nd Jan
Did you feel everything? Like they did not make anything numb?
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I have 11 kids & live in Tulsa, Oklahoma
posted 22nd Jan
<blockquote><b>Quoting Dr. Paradigm Shift:</b>" Maybe she meant bottomless...that can feel very naked. If they made you get totally nude, OP, I'd be writing an angry letter. "</blockquote>




Very possible.

And agreed.
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posted 22nd Jan
Hang in there. Only you know what's best for you.
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posted 22nd Jan
I think you should be really proud of yourself for making a decision that was so obviously right for you! As a hcp I feel awful that no one was there to hold ur hand through what is a very unpleasant experience but you should never let anyone make you feel bad about what happened as no one knows ur circumstances except you! Hold ur head high xxx
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