As the subject line reads, I had an abortion today and I didnt know who to tell. No one knew I was going in for the procedure, not even the father of the child. He didnt even know I was pregnant to begin with. This was my second abortion, although the previous involved medication, this procedure would be "in-clinic". I thought as I waited for my name to be called, could this be the last chance I have at having a child? Could this be a mistake? I am not sure I went into the procedure room 100% sure of my decision as I had done the first time. I was completely awake for the entire procedure and what a traumatizing scene it is. The room was frigid cold, completely sterile with odd machinery scattered throughout. In the matter of 2 minutes I was nude, strapped to the table and the procedure began. After what felt like minutes of intense pain it was over. I sat in the recovery room completely unemotional and detached from the whole situation. The women sitting next to me who had also undergone the same procedure was crying hysterically telling me cliche life quotes about the moment we were both in. She was surprised I wasnt bothered by the whole thing or the fact that I was awake the entire time, listening, watching and feeling. I went on with my day as if nothing had happened. I worked an entire shift the rest of the day and laughed and gossiped just like any other day. Is it wrong that I feel nothing or have no emotional reaction to what transpired this morning? This morning I was pregnant and tonight, its just me. I needed to get that out, say something, tell someone about what I did today cause to this hour no one I know has any idea what Ive been through today. Thanks for letting me vent tonight!
hey, I don't have anything to say other than regardless of what you feel, don't beat yourself up. Remember to give yourself a break. It sounds like you made a good decision and I hope everything goes well for you.
Did theu litrally strap u down naked? That sounds scary!
I think a mass range of feelings or detachment would be normal after an abortion i dont know from experience tho so i cant offer much advice.
Hope your feeling ok x
I think you should be really proud of yourself for making a decision that was so obviously right for you! As a hcp I feel awful that no one was there to hold ur hand through what is a very unpleasant experience but you should never let anyone make you feel bad about what happened as no one knows ur circumstances except you! Hold ur head high xxx