Quoting darianmybean:" I've already looked into assistance, but i don't qualify because i make too much money. They consider ... [snip!] ... with my last baby also. I just can't imagine being able to look at myself in the mirror ever again if i go through with this. "
You never really get over an abortion. Yes it kills you right now to think of everything. But before you type me back just take a breath. Close your eyes and take a breath.
Like you have been saying, you have been talking about your kids that are already here. and how you love them. Yes things would be stretched but then you have to think about if you lost your job due to you being pregnant, you wouldnt even provide for your kids. Trust me, I know how you are feeling right now.
If its not the right choice for you, then its not. Keep the baby. If it is the right choice for you, write down all of the good positive reasons why you are going through with it. And remember the sadness that you are feeling right now does not last forever when you see them laugh or smile at something that you have done for them. Im not trying to sway you one way or the other. Im trying to provide you with advice.