re: If you didn't get the birth you dreamed of

<blockquote><b>Quoting Dallas ♥ Isla:</b>" she said the MFM knew it was fetal blood they had the NICU team in our room and they took the baby when ... [snip!] ... emails too. I just don't even know where to start to write out my whole story. I could write a fricking book I will eventually."</blockquote>

They knew the blood with your water was fetal blood?! And didn't do anything? Was she able to compress it all the way out or did she bleed again? Or did she come out fast?

Quoting lolajessup:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Dallas ♥ Isla:</b>" she said the MFM knew it was fetal ... [snip!] ... blood?! And didn't do anything? Was she able to compress it all the way out or did she bleed again? Or did she come out fast?"

I got her out I think as fast as a human possibly could lol I dont believe she bled anymore. there was lots of bleeding afterward but it was mine
he pretty much told me push her out or we need to cut her out because her heart rate was dipping extremely low. he was surprised that i pushed her out right after he said that.
and yeah? you would think fetal blood would be kind of a serious thing?

but this is also a doctor who didn't think I needed to know about any of this

Im terrified of birth for this pregnancy. My first daughter was stillborn. Had her all natural, short 6ish hour labor. After connecting with so many baby lost mothers and becoming aware of so much that goes wrong... im just terrified. Im going to have to deliver early this time and Im terrified of something going wrong in a vaginal birth, let alone inductions, and then everyones like why would you WANT a major surgery... Because to me getting her here alive is most important. Then drs warn about risks of infection, adhesions, future pregnancies... One told me about how one womans placenta grew into her csection scar and they had to remove her uterus just that morning or she could have died from hemorraging. So now I have no idea how to deliver... I feel like Im going to be unhappy and fearful no matter what.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Dallas ♥ Isla:</b>" I got her out I think as fast as a human possibly could lol I dont believe she bled anymore. there was ... [snip!] ... fetal blood would be kind of a serious thing? but this is also a doctor who didn't think I needed to know about any of this"</blockquote>

I just can't believe they were gonna hide it from you   your story really tears me up  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Dr. Mrs. The Monarch:</b>" Im terrified of birth for this pregnancy. My first daughter was stillborn. Had her all natural, short ... [snip!] ... died from hemorraging. So now I have no idea how to deliver... I feel like Im going to be unhappy and fearful no matter what."</blockquote>


Yeah that's why I'm almost certain I wot want another baby after this csection. I've gone through so much my whole preg And Hve to go through so much to make sure she's alive during delivery. And I am already high risk for a hysterextomy because of my stupid placenta. So maybe that would be gods way of saying I'm done if it happens. But yeah with subsequent press I'd Hve to worry about going through all this again because of the stupid scar. So I just don't think it's worth my sanity.

But I definitely understand why you would feel like you just want them here safe. You're not being unreasonable at all. Idk how many kids you want but I guess if that did happen with another preg maybe that would just be a sign you were only mean to have those two. Idk. I will be praying for your safe delivery no matter which means you choose.

Quoting lolajessup:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Dallas ♥ Isla:</b>" I got her out I think as fast as ... [snip!] ... any of this"</blockquote> I just can't believe they were gonna hide it from you   your story really tears me up  "

I was angry for a while, I had people telling me to take legal action etc etc.
but I'm just so thankful she is okay after all of that, that I don't want to bring any more negativity into our lives. it's over, she's alive and well and that's all I care about. I tell everyone about VP now though. I feel like I need to.
poor people on my facebook probably think I'm nuts because I post about it a lot. but if I end up saving a baby one day, then hey.. I don't mind.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Dallas ♥ Isla:</b>" I was angry for a while, I had people telling me to take legal action etc etc. but I'm just so thankful ... [snip!] ... facebook probably think I'm nuts because I post about it a lot. but if I end up saving a baby one day, then hey.. I don't mind."</blockquote>



I do too. Especially people pregnant with twins or placenta previa. Even if it moves. or any other weird abnormalities. It's just not worth the risk. I'm just lucky my dr sent me to the peri over something as simple as a vanishing twin. Most dra would have blown it off. And I'm so glad I chose to return to the peri for my regular 19 week u/s. otherwise I'd have had a tech who wouldn't have found it.

Quoting lolajessup:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Brooke Bush:</b>" He's at Helen Devos Children's hospital in ... [snip!] ... had to buy donor milk from Bronson's in Kalamazoo since I won't give her formula if she needs more than what I make at first."

Yeah I live in Grand Rapids. So it's just a few minutes drive away. Well in this snow it takes closer to half an hour. But I'm just glad it's close enough to where I can go up there multiple times a day. I hope your little one doesn't have to stay there for too long! It's hard to leave them at all.

<blockquote><b>Quoting lolajessup:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Dr. Mrs. The Monarch:</b>" Im terrified of birth for this pregnancy. ... [snip!] ... be a sign you were only mean to have those two. Idk. I will be praying for your safe delivery no matter which means you choose."</blockquote>

Thanks. I guess Im going to see how my cervix is and her position before making the call. Part of me would like for something to just be apparent to make one choice obviously better.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Dr. Mrs. The Monarch:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting lolajessup:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Dr. Mrs. ... [snip!] ... position before making the call. Part of me would like for something to just be apparent to make one choice obviously better."</blockquote>

Yeah you'll probably have to play it by ear.