re: Fitness and Diet Diary PICS restarted 5/21

Updated with pics!

Was feeling really bad, managed 50 minutes of circuit, only burned 410. I'll get up early and do some in the morning.

Just saw your pictures and you are looking GREAT! Wow wow. Just a month too, right? Super motivated me. I have 2 months to tone a little bit. I currently weigh 122 and am 5'6". Just need to tone. I am going to start my p90x tomorrow! Tonight is date night. First date night since having DD almost 3 months ago.

You just look amazing. Keep it up.  

Quoting KyliesMommy2012:" Just saw your pictures and you are looking GREAT! Wow wow. Just a month too, right? Super motivated me. ... [snip!] ... tomorrow! Tonight is date night. First date night since having DD almost 3 months ago. You just look amazing. Keep it up.  "

Thank you!!
I miss being your weight, but my body just won't let me have it. I'm sure your results will be amazing!

Had literally no time to workout yesterday. Hardly any today, did a quick workout and cleaned. 970 calories earned.

Quoting Tickledpinktwice:" Thank you!! I miss being your weight, but my body just won't let me have it. I'm sure your results will be amazing!"

I obsess over the number.. I have always felt, since I was very young, that the number was more important than how I feel. Have some body issues I am trying to over come! Now, It's more important how I feel. And I don't feel great. So I need to start and stick with it!

<blockquote><b>Quoting KyliesMommy2012:</b>" I obsess over the number.. I have always felt, since I was very young, that the number was more important ... [snip!] ... I am trying to over come! Now, It's more important how I feel. And I don't feel great. So I need to start and stick with it!"</blockquote>




I know exactly, I was anorexic at the beginning of last year. I looked gross. I still struggle, its hard,I used to weigh myself multiple times a day. hugs!
My new obsession is calories burned. Did 30 minutes of straight burpees, sit UPS, pushups, planks and squats. I pushed, 242 calories:/ Ugh!!! I did walk a lot buy still, I didn't track that  I have to kill myself with fitness tomorrow!

<blockquote><b>Quoting Tickledpinktwice:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting KyliesMommy2012:</b>" I obsess over the number.. I have always ... [snip!] ... I pushed, 242 calories:/ Ugh!!! I did walk a lot buy still, I didn't track that  I have to kill myself with fitness tomorrow!"</blockquote>




Love, you're trading one addiction for another. While exercising IS healthy, obsessing over it and feeling like you have to push super hard and reach crazy calories every day is NOT healthy. I feel like you're going overboard a bit. Exercise obsession can be just as bad as anorexia/ bullemia. I don't really know what much else to say because I know you're probably not getting enough calories and are going to keep killing yourself to try to reach high calorie goals.

I know, I have such an addictive personality. Luckily, I don't starve myself, the calories burned just cause anxiety. There really isn't anything I can. At least exercising is healthy. I do think I eat enough though..
For instance today, This isn't my healthiest day
For breakfast I have:
Yogurt-160calories ( I don't care this is the only yogurt I like!)
Banana- 100 calories

and lunch:
Cup of Grape Tomatoes, approximately 70 calories
Cup of Red Jello 70 calories
Crusted Chicken Breast approximately 300 calories

Snack- Pretzels and 10 raspberries, approximately 170 calories
That is 870 right there
No clue about dinner yet probably some Tuna Salad with Greek Yogurt ( with crackers, not bread), some carrots and an Orange.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Tickledpinktwice:</b>" I know, I have such an addictive personality. Luckily, I don't starve myself, the calories burned just ... [snip!] ... No clue about dinner yet probably some Tuna Salad with Greek Yogurt ( with crackers, not bread), some carrots and an Orange."</blockquote>




Well that's much better for eating. The last couple times you poste they weren't so great. I just worry about you and often see you beating yourself up over things that aren't bad.

Quoting Triple "A":" <blockquote><b>Quoting Tickledpinktwice:</b>" I know, I have such an addictive personality. ... [snip!] ... you poste they weren't so great. I just worry about you and often see you beating yourself up over things that aren't bad."

A lot of my issues are mental health but you have to start somewhere;(

<blockquote><b>Quoting Tickledpinktwice:</b>" A lot of my issues are mental health but you have to start somewhere;("</blockquote>




I know. That kills me. You're such a beautiful person mentally and physically. Where do you think your issues come from?

Quoting Triple "A":" <blockquote><b>Quoting Tickledpinktwice:</b>" A lot of my issues are mental health ... [snip!] ... I know. That kills me. You're such a beautiful person mentally and physically. Where do you think your issues come from?"

Thank you love<3 You know,honestly, as cliche as it sounds.....ever since my dad died when I was 10 I have been troubled. That next summer, I became anorexic and it all went downhill from there.

Quoting Tickledpinktwice:" Thank you love<3 You know,honestly, as cliche as it sounds.....ever since my dad died when I was 10 I have been troubled. That next summer, I became anorexic and it all went downhill from there."

Oh, Mary. That's not cliche, that's life. I have a friend whose dad passed away when she was 7 years old--I met her when she was 19 and there still wasn't a day when she didn't cry because she missed him. Have you ever gone to talk to anyone about it? Sometimes we express our grief in ways that are unhealthy or harmful to ourselves.

Quoting Little Vine:" Oh, Mary. That's not cliche, that's life. I have a friend whose dad passed away when she was 7 years ... [snip!] ... you ever gone to talk to anyone about it? Sometimes we express our grief in ways that are unhealthy or harmful to ourselves."

Everyone says I was lucky because I don't remember much, and maybe my memory is distorted but I remember all good. I was a daddy's girl, did not get a long with mother. I have and honestly, nothing helps. I have a friend I talk to sometimes which is helpful.I'm ok some days and others are really hard. He missed everything. It just doesn't seem fair. I have horrible health, no father.....etc