Quoting cupcakexo:" I think I am losing my mind over this, I could of sworn I felt it moving today but I think it's all in ... [snip!] ... been girls in there 8 or 9 times.. I cannot imagine that at all as this is hard enough..Maybe it is more simple than I think.. "
well, imo, it's never really going to be completely cut and dry, right or wrong. for me, as i said, i still have thoughts of "what if" or "i wonder". i assume they could be called a type of regret. it still makes me sad. but, at the same time, even with all those thoughts, i honestly know that the decision i made was the best one at the time. all things considered, it was the "right" thing for me to do then. now? obviously, i made a different choice (being that i am due to have a baby in april).
i can't make the decision for you, but you know that already. i can tell you what it's like for me now and how it was when it happened, but i can't tell you how it will be for you-- how you will feel, etc. but you know that too. all i can say is that whatever the choice you make, just know and remind yourself that it is the best choice you can make for you right now. if you choose to terminate, know that you decided what you did based on what you have, know, and feel now because that is all you/we can do. if you change your mind and choose to carry the child to term, know that that decision was based on the same-- your knowledge, feelings, resources for now because that too is all you can do.
i feel for you, i really do. i struggled with the decision as well, and even though i made my decision sooner than you did, it was still very very difficult. i wish i could help in some other way, but i am an ear if you ever need one. i hope you can come to a peaceful decision soon. i wish you that!