Quoting Mommy2Kay:" I think it's wonderful that he is so understand and respects you enough not to touch when you ask. Do ... [snip!] ... Do you have a therapist? If not, look for help, it might be something out of your control. I'm so sorry you went through that."
Yeah I did have a therapist, but I just stopped going one day. I stopped being in contact with my therapist, my case worker, everyone who was helping me through it. It just felt suffocating to have a bunch of people mentally recording my process, and I couldn't stand the feeling of me getting worse or not improving at all. It was cutting mostly, because I cut myself after it happened, so when there were more cuts it was worse, and when there were none it was better. I was starting to get into drugs as well, and I just couldn't stand them finding out. So I cut them. And hit rock bottom, and started to build my life back up and focus on my child. I stopped cutting, and using drugs, I feel a lot better.