Quoting MommaNoodle:" i used to have days like this frequently at the beginning (just after the abortion). but now, two years ... [snip!] ... but i also know that time helps. even if it doesn't completely heal, it does help. at least, for me. i hope the same for you. "
This is true, I know how you are feeling (after my last one I became obsessed with having my memory erased like in the film "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind") but the moments like that are gradually becoming further apart.
Hugs. Take care of yourself xxxxx