re: I REALLY want....

<blockquote><b>Quoting Safka9973:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Lacey.Rose:</b>" <blockquote><b>Quoting Safka9973:</b>" ... [snip!] ... don't smoke. My ex would not for the life of him quit. But lots of guys do. I hope your man can! Good luck with your labor!"</blockquote>

He says he wants to but I'll believe it when it happens lol. And thank you, if this little miss ever decides to come out haha. I'll hopefully have her by the end of next week depending if she's here by Monday or not, I'm not sure how far away my doctor would book the induction date.

I'm having a hard time, meaning it when I say I wont be picking smoking back up. But I as well can't wait for my first drink. Lily will be a month old and SO say's he'll be taking over baby duty on my birthday so I can either relax at home or go out and have a few drinks. Again don't know if I will be picking smoking up or not after she's no long a new born. :/

<blockquote><b>Quoting Chelsea :3:</b>" I'm having a hard time, meaning it when I say I wont be picking smoking back up. But I as well can't ... [snip!] ... or go out and have a few drinks. Again don't know if I will be picking smoking up or not after she's no long a new born. :/"</blockquote>

I'm going to try my damndest not to!! Smoking made me eel smurffy anyways. Its that damn glass of wine calling my name though lol..

Quoting Lacey.Rose:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Chelsea :3:</b>" I'm having a hard time, meaning it when I say ... [snip!] ... going to try my damndest not to!! Smoking made me eel smurffy anyways. Its that damn glass of wine calling my name though lol.."

Lol like I said I cannot wait for my first drink to feel all relaxed and NOT guilty! I know there's little to no harm from a glass of wine and I just can't do it. I want a cigarette so bad and I'm afraid I wont be able to stay away once she's born.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Chelsea :3:</b>" Lol like I said I cannot wait for my first drink to feel all relaxed and NOT guilty! I know there's ... [snip!] ... a glass of wine and I just can't do it. I want a cigarette so bad and I'm afraid I wont be able to stay away once she's born."</blockquote>


That's why I'm waiting for a drink as well. I've slipped up twice and had a cigarette and felt like a failure both times and bawled my face off. I can't imagine how I'd feel if I had a drink :s

Quoting Lacey.Rose:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Chelsea :3:</b>" Lol like I said I cannot wait for my first ... [snip!] ... and had a cigarette and felt like a failure both times and bawled my face off. I can't imagine how I'd feel if I had a drink :s"

I almost had a glass of wine on new years but I just couldn't. :/ I felt too guilty. Cigarettes I know I can't do that. Guilt is my worst emotion! Lol it's so strong! I don't know what I'll do about smoking after she's hear. I might just become a social smoker if I REALLY have to have a cigarette. I'll go out and have one with a friend instead of ACTUALLY starting up again you know?

<blockquote><b>Quoting Chelsea :3:</b>" I almost had a glass of wine on new years but I just couldn't. :/ I felt too guilty. Cigarettes I know ... [snip!] ... if I REALLY have to have a cigarette. I'll go out and have one with a friend instead of ACTUALLY starting up again you know? "</blockquote>

If I start smoking again in anyway its (hopefully) going to be me bumming one off my boyfriend when I just can't deal anymore. Its helps calm my really bad stress.