Quoting Lacey.Rose:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Chelsea :3:</b>" Lol like I said I cannot wait for my first ... [snip!] ... and had a cigarette and felt like a failure both times and bawled my face off. I can't imagine how I'd feel if I had a drink :s"
I almost had a glass of wine on new years but I just couldn't. :/ I felt too guilty. Cigarettes I know I can't do that. Guilt is my worst emotion! Lol it's so strong! I don't know what I'll do about smoking after she's hear. I might just become a social smoker if I REALLY have to have a cigarette. I'll go out and have one with a friend instead of ACTUALLY starting up again you know?