My story

I found out I was pregnant 12/12/11. I was so scared about becoming a mom. The father was so excited, he had been my best friend for 14 years. We were not together but working towards it. I lost my job 1/13/2012. I my family that I was pregnant and everyone was so excited for me and I kept hearing what a good mommy I would be. Right before I lost my job I was considering abortion(even though I had always been pro life) I had 2 really close friends that I lived with that were so supportive. I had my ex who seem supportive at the time. I decided to go through with the abortion after many days of thinking and weighing out the pros and cons of it. I scheduled the appointment. The night before my appointment I was an emotional basket case. but I kept being told your doing the right thing. The morning of my appointment my ex drove me to the clinic. the whole way there I was in tears he kept telling me not to think about it. I talked to the doctor and had the ultrasound. the tech asked if i wanted to see and i told her i didn't. I sat in the waiting room for what seemed like an eternity. They finally called my name i went back they started the IV in a room full of girls doing the same thing i was doing. none of the girls acted like it was a big deal just another doctors appointment. they took me back to the room and the doctor came in with the anesthesiology. they put the drugs to knock me out in the IV the next thing i remember I was waking up fully dressed in a wheel chair going to the recovery room. I sat in the recovery room with a heating pad for about a half hour with a heating pad watch girls come in and out. the last girl to come in before i left was crying and asked the nurse if she thought she was a bad person for what she had done. i literally thought i could feel my heart breaking. the ride home was so painful. when i got home my ex hugged me and told me he would be there if i needed him. I didn't tell the babies father what i was going to do and i told him i miscarried. i think the lie was worse than actually doing it. well i eventually decided i had to tell him but before i could find the way to my ex was telling everyone what i did and he found out before i did it myself. i didn't think he would ever forgive me. we finally ended up together but our relationship was not a good one. 5/14/2012 i found out i was pregnant again which in turn caused our relationship to fall apart completely. we fought constantly even after i moved out. our daughter was born 12/16/12 and i cant help looking at her thinking about the abortion. wondering if it would have been a boy or girl what he/she would have looked like. things between me and her father are starting to get better but i cant help but think he still hasn't forgiven me and only wants me here because of our daughter. with the 1 year mark coming soon its all starting to hit me again  

Thank you for sharing...I contemplated it as well but now I'm a month away from my due date...I feel for you because I know what went through my mind while I was making my decision as well...just be strong for your daughter now...you can't change the past and can only move forward...you have to!! Take care and my best wishes for you and your family <3

thank you very much

You're welcome :-)

there was a couple times during the beginning of my pregnancy I thought about getting an abortion. But then I thought of my 2 miscarriages and second guessed if I could even have a full term baby. I figured this baby was given to me for a reason. My pregnancy has been god awful but I'm super excited for the end result she'll be here any day now

ETA: stay strong for your family, and I'm sure you 2 can work through it  

Quoting Emma Catherine's mommy:" I found out I was pregnant 12/12/11. I was so scared about becoming a mom. The father was so excited, ... [snip!] ... me and only wants me here because of our daughter. with the 1 year mark coming soon its all starting to hit me again  "

OK, so the ex who drove you to get the abortion was NOT the father? The baby you are pregnant with now has the SAME father as the one you termimated? & You got pregnant just a few months after the abortion? Is that right?

Quoting S U Z I E:" OK, so the ex who drove you to get the abortion was NOT the father? The baby you are pregnant with now ... [snip!] ... now has the SAME father as the one you termimated? & You got pregnant just a few months after the abortion? Is that right?"

yes thats right

Quoting Emma Catherine's mommy:" yes thats right"

Wow! Pretty much that SAME thing happened to me! Except the "other ex" who drove you... My mom and grandma drove...
I wish the best for you and I hope that you and your child's father can work things out and keep your family together... If not, I hope you can at least co-parent successfully as friends!  

as of right now we are co parenting as friends we even live in the same house. he says hes forgiven me but somedays it doesnt seem like it. we are working toward getting back together and seeing how things go just somedays i dont have much hope.

Quoting Emma Catherine's mommy:" as of right now we are co parenting as friends we even live in the same house. he says hes forgiven me ... [snip!] ... doesnt seem like it. we are working toward getting back together and seeing how things go just somedays i dont have much hope."

Well, good luck hun! I hope things get beeter and work out the way you want them too! Don't feel guilty, you did what you thought was best for you at the time! Do you regret it? Maybe he can feel that?

Thank You. I have days where I regret it but for the most part I dont. I know I did the right thing at the time. I think it was more me not telling him that I was doing it but I know he would have never let me do it if I would have.

Quoting Emma Catherine's mommy:" Thank You. I have days where I regret it but for the most part I dont. I know I did the right thing at ... [snip!] ... time. I think it was more me not telling him that I was doing it but I know he would have never let me do it if I would have."

Same here! We had an abusive relationship though...  
I wish I would've just stayed away from him after that! He's psychotic! Luckily for me and my daughter, he is in jail! At least he is until 2017... 
But I guess everything happens for a reason, eh?

thats good for you guys!!! I agree everything happens for a reason thats why abortion wasnt even a thought with my daughter