What IS this?

Why am I so sad?? I mean, yes, smurf has been rough this week, but jesus christ. I feel like a zombie. Just walking around incapable of feeling anything but this weight. There is no reason for this. I should be happy. My due date is a month away. So why do I feel so depressed? I don't want to have to be around anyone or do anything. Having to simply exchange pleasantries with my coworkers is a struggle lately. Is this common in pregnancy? Am I more likely to have PPD because I feel this way? This entire pregnancy I've felt hormonal with crazy ups and downs but the past little while I've just been bitchy with everyone. Everyone that says anything to me I just want to hit them and tell them how stupid they are, when they didn't even do anything. And now I just can't even bring myself to bother talking to anyone at all. I feel like a horrible person for being this way, but I don't know how to fix it  

Talk to your OB at your next appt. It sounds like baby blues but you aren't even there yet. Is there anything going on that's a major stress right now?

talk to your dr! I've been like this throughout all of my pregnancies and had ppd with my three children, i began taking zoloft with my last pg and it worked wonders. I have been on it again with this pg and am doing well as is baby. idk sorry for the rambles but just know youre not alone.

Yes, we're having some issues with our house right now. Our plumbing is shot and we have NO money to fix it. I've been snippy and irritable for quite some time though. I didn't feel so depressed until today, though when I realized I couldn't use my washer anymore because whatever the issue is has made it's way from the bathrooms to the laundry room now. Our air conditioner is already fried and we have to use our tax return to replace that and it's not even going to be enough. It's going to cost several thousand to fix the plumbing, too. Last month I had to take DS to the pedi though and he acted like I was crazy and needed to be on antidepressants just because I was sniffly and emotional that DS was being so awful that week.

I was on Zoloft as a teenager for a couple of years and it made me extremely apathetic. I don't know. I hate the idea of taking medication. I hate it. I've been drugged half my life with anxiety meds and anti depressants and I'm just so over it. I was perfectly fine until it started to get cold. I think my hormones on top of my usual seasonal depression plus the stress of the last couple months is just too much. I just hope it straightens itself out because I'm tired of feeling this way and I don't want medication.

Quoting Reise's Mommy:" Yes, we're having some issues with our house right now. Our plumbing is shot and we have NO money to ... [snip!] ... is just too much. I just hope it straightens itself out because I'm tired of feeling this way and I don't want medication."

Would it be better to buy a bunch of fans for this summer or buy a single room window box and hang out in one room this summer, so you can fix your plumbing and have your bathroom back and laundry. That might be a little hard because I know it gets hot. I can just see more issues with having no way to do washing, even if you had dry. Or creating more issues if it's not repaired KWIM?

As for the weepy, it sounds like you have a lot on your plate and being pregnant. I can't tell you if your depressed or not, above the season. If you are in doubt you could try the meds for 6-8 weeks and see how you are feeling. Maybe make a note of what's going on right now. Tired. Emotional. Weepy. Overwhelmed and then come back in a month and half or two months and see what your emotions are like then. If you have improved I'd be inclined to say keep taking them for a bit.

Quoting ♫ boobook ♫:" Would it be better to buy a bunch of fans for this summer or buy a single room window box and hang out ... [snip!] ... two months and see what your emotions are like then. If you have improved I'd be inclined to say keep taking them for a bit. "

The way our house is set up we would have to buy at least 3 window units to make the house even close to livable and the 4 grand for the A/C unit isn't going to be enough to fix the pipes anyway We have concrete slab and they're going to have to pull all our flooring and foundation up and re-lay the pipes, then we'll have to buy all new flooring and concrete. My uncle had to do it and it was 10 grand out of pocket after his home insurance paid for some of it   I can't put 2 babies under the age of 2 through a 110 degree Kentucky summer without air, I just can't.

I won't take anything while I'm pregnant because I'm paranoid, but I will consider it after I have him if it doesn't improve at all. I have some days where I'm perfectly fine, but the minute any small thing goes wrong it's like the end of the world and it's so tiring.

Quoting Reise's Mommy:" The way our house is set up we would have to buy at least 3 window units to make the house even close ... [snip!] ... days where I'm perfectly fine, but the minute any small thing goes wrong it's like the end of the world and it's so tiring."

Have you looked into the cost for yourself for your home?

Quoting ♫ boobook ♫:" Have you looked into the cost for yourself for your home? "

I've tried but no one will come look and give a diagnosis/estimate without us paying at least $100 service call and we don't have $100 to just fork over for them to tell us it's going to be way more than we can afford anyway. We fell very far behind in our bills in October and still aren't caught back up because we work for the same company and they shut down without any notice for a week, so we lost an entire week's pay and then when we got caught back up they shut down again for Christmas, so now we're back to being broke again. We both worked over time last week and I was so excited we were gonna be able to get completely caught up and finish the baby's room and then the plumbing got worse. We've only had one working bathtub since May and now it's about to stop draining too. But the sinks in the bathroom drain fine. It doesn't make any sense. I don't understand why the washer drain and both bathtubs are having issues, but nothing else. It can't be the main drain line if the sink right next to the tub is draining fine. We also have black mold growing in the pipes now and I don't know why that's happening either, but our bathroom reeks and I can't get rid of it.

Quoting Reise's Mommy:" I've tried but no one will come look and give a diagnosis/estimate without us paying at least $100 service ... [snip!] ... mold growing in the pipes now and I don't know why that's happening either, but our bathroom reeks and I can't get rid of it."

black mold is serious and can make you very sick. Little kids are smaller so the effects are worse and sooner.

And there is a lot of water that drains from the tub and washer vs sink. The problem will get worse until it gets fixed.

IMO it sounds like you need to re-evaluate your priorities. make a large down payment with your taxes, maybe get a line of credit through a bank with monthly installments to get the plumbing fixed.

Quoting ♫ boobook ♫:" black mold is serious and can make you very sick. Little kids are smaller so the effects are worse and ... [snip!] ... down payment with your taxes, maybe get a line of credit through a bank with monthly installments to get the plumbing fixed. "

That's why we keep the bathroom door closed at all times so no spores escape in the air and I daily pour bathtub cleaner down the line to kill what I can. Only we use that bathroom. DS doesn't go in there or near it. We just moved from our apartment and bought this house not even a year ago because our apartment kept flooding and they wouldn't replace the flooring so we had black mold under the carpet. It flooded a ridiculous amount of times when we lived there and they would never fix the issue. We left and lived with my mom for a week while we closed on the house because I couldn't take it there anymore.

Also, our tub backs up immediately even if you barely turn the water on, so I know it's not an issue of how much water is going through the line. When it started a couple of months ago I tried running a snake and found rock inside the pipes. It's our foundation causing the issue, it has to be. I would make a down payment with our taxes but we can't. Because we've never hired a plumber no one will allow us to make payments. You have to be a previous customer or you have to pay for everything up front with cash. I called every plumber in town and they all said the same thing. I'm related to one of them even through marriage and he won't do anything unless we pay everything up front. And I called about a line of credit today and was declined because we don't have enough equity on our house and can't afford a normal loan that's going to be two or three hundred dollars a month to pay off. Bottom line is we're going to have to leave our house. We've looked at all of our options and that's the only one we have. No one we know has any money, let alone any money we could borrow. We both come from very poor families and we're better off financially by a long shot than my parents, that's for sure. His parents just spent 40k redoing their kitchen and are still paying on that so I don't think they have anything either. DH is supposed to ask tomorrow, but I don't see it happening and that's our last shot at staying here. We paid for an inspection before we bought this smurfing house and it makes me so upset that within a month of moving in we had to start dealing with this. I don't even want to deal with it. I have to work 9 hours a day and I go to school full time, I never see DH because we work opposite shifts because we can't afford daycare. Unless one of us can work from home we can't even get a second job because as soon as he gets home from work I leave for work and we have no one to watch DS.

What really puts the icing on the cake is my dad is a plumber. He's not certified, but he worked as a plumber for several years and there's nothing he can do because he lives in Canada and can't even pay his rent right now so he can't come down. Even if he could we would still have to pay for all the new concrete and flooring, but at least the pipes would work right. He hasn't even seen his grandson since he was 3 months old and probably won't even meet this one until he's 2, so that has me upset too. I'm gonna go to bed. I don't want to think about any of this anymore. I've cried all day. I just want to sleep.

I feel dumb.

This was the first week since October we've been caught up and had extra money so I decided to have a plumber out just to diagnose and tell us what we were looking at...

He was here for 30 minutes and had it fixed -_- I was all worried over nothing. There WAS rock in the pipes, but it didn't come from the foundation. It was at ONE point in time hair. It calcified and turned to a rock like blob. He said he wasn't surprised we thought it was worse and he wasn't surprised we couldn't get it with a hand snake because he had a hard time getting it with the biggest electric snake he had, but he did finally break it up and now both our bathtubs work for the first time since June and I was able to finally clean the drain line in our bathroom and have it actually come clean. So, thank you for talking to me about it the other night because I may not have decided to call them if you hadn't   <3

That's wonderful news! Are you feeling any better?

Quoting ♫ boobook ♫:" That's wonderful news! Are you feeling any better?"

LOADS lol. I think I just don't handle stress well during pregnancy.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Reise's Mommy:</b>" LOADS lol. I think I just don't handle stress well during pregnancy."</blockquote>




That was a lot on your shoulders. Pretty sure it would have been very stressful pregnant or not. It's good to hear you were able to get it fixed before any more time went by. Have fun catching up on laundry ;) that is my chore for tomorrow :/ I hate folding.