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Try not to focus so much on being "thin". Try instead to focus only on the thought of being healthy. Look at foods you're eating and determine if they are healthy or not.
If you want to lose weight and be healthy eat things like lean meats (turkey, chicken, fish), tons and tons of vegetables, whole grain products, and of course fruits.

If you do this and then maybe throw in a little exercise here and there the weight will come off, but more importantly you will be healthier, and you'll feel it to.

Just try to focus on the healthy part. Hopefully it will help you not think about just being skinny.

I have struggle with eating dissorders since i was a teen. I have gone from overeating to not eating. I do well most days like you but lately i have been letting it get the best of me and undereating not as much as i use to but still not eating enough. It was really hard to lose my pregnancy weight the healthy way but i did it. I exercised a good amount by doing zumba and eating more fruits and veggies cheeses ect.. Its hard not to fall back into old habit, but it also helps when you have people there to support you.

I've struggled the same way since I was 15. It got 1000 times worse went I went to a college that made me absolutely miserable. I went back and forth for years with therapy getting better and getting worse. When me and my husband decided it was time for baby I decided it was time to nip it in th bud otherwise I did not need to be pregnant. Eating disorder free for like three months so we decided it was time to try (other reasons we were ready as well of course) and I have had a few spots in this pregnancy where I could not hack it but this has been the healthiest I have been in 10 years. (In 38 weeks of pregnancy I have probably had about 10-12 days that I made a bad decision, and I wanted to die everytime I caved) Think about your children and how it affects them. Helps me everytime. I'm confident to since I'm breastfeeding I will need to keep up with my nutrition and my mom, husband and family are behind me 100 percent. I truly don't believe the desire will ever completely go away but always stop and weigh the pros and cons. Pro is you may stay skinny (for me it was more about a feeling of complete relief) but the cons always out number the pros 100 to 1 for me. Good luck I know it sucks and its something I lied to myself and family about for years and years but admitting it is a huge step and then let others help you as well. Good luck and God bless.

Quoting Rotton Kind of Cute:" Try not to focus so much on being "thin". Try instead to focus only on the thought of being healthy. ... [snip!] ... and you'll feel it to. Just try to focus on the healthy part. Hopefully it will help you not think about just being skinny."

That's good advice. Unfortunately easier said than done. I'm vegetarian, so I only eat fruits and vegetables, and bread and occasionally cheese. Usually around 1000 calories a day. I casually exercise (squats and lunges while playing with/holding DS, walks around the neighborhood, etc) as well. But I honestly feel like pregnancy and my ED have killed my metabolism. I've hardly lost any weight since giving birth 5 months ago.
Still, I do agree that positive thoughts and thinking healthy vs. thin would benefit.   It just sucks because I'm at the point where I'm eating well and not sitting on my butt all day and still I'm not losing weight, you know? It's too easy to just go into weight loss overdrive and do what i used to.

i know im late, but i saw this when i clicked the forums button.
Ive had an ED(my reasonings are too personal lol) for 6 years. i was 12, im now 19. it wouldve been 7 years if i hadnt've gotten pregnant. lost quite a bit the healthy way. i think i wouldve went right back down that path if i gained my control back instantly. but, 7 months after giving birth, finally found some control even though i was trying to avoid my bad habits.i fasted on and off for the past 2 months. only lost 10lbs. still fast on and off. i dont think anyone can understand anything like this unless they've experienced it themselves. you cant just tell someone to eat healthy and exercise. it doesnt work like that. as soon as you hear the words "eat" or "food," you think negative thoughts. ive went to seek help. didnt help. i believe no one can help you but yourself. or no one can help you until you believe you have a problem. this is all psychological. it cant be fixed within a matter of days or week or months, maybe even years. everyone is different. but, once you look into your baby's eyes and see that beautiful face, im sure that will help alot on what you decide to do.

yes, i had my daughter 7 months ago, and yes, i caved in into "Ana's trap" again, but, this time, im helping myself. ive been using skinnytaste.com and ive started the 30 day shred. that way i can still lose weight, and be there to watch my baby grow up.

height: 5'3/
lowest weight:98.
highest weght/before i devleoped ED:160.
before pregnancy:150 (was trying my hardest to help myself to get better. gained all my weight back, pretty much).
day i gave birth:235.
after i delivered:210.
current weight: 185.

You're not alone dear. I have struggled with eating disorders since I was 13 as well. When I found out I was pregnant I was in pretty deep and was starving, purging, and abusing laxatives a lot. I gorged myself during my entire pregnancy because I was terrified of depriving my baby of nutrients and gained soooo much weight. Now at almost 10 months postpartum, I am also struggling to lose weight without falling back into my old ways. I either eat everything or nothing. Currently I have been having a hard time getting above 600 calories...I so desperately want to eat healthy, but after all these years I just don't know how  

I too suffered from bulimia, for 7 years... I finally forced myself to get healthy when I was pregnant with my son.. Its been a long journey, but I'm much happier now. I still struggle with the Ed thoughts and hating myself, but as far as binging and purging, I'll never ever go back to that.
the first step is deciding to stop, tell yourself binging and purging is not an option, then start to eat healthier foods and not focus on being thin,
and your body well go down to a healthy weight on its own.
Something that helped me recover was when I felt the urge to b/p, I'd do something else to keep me busy and take my mind off of it.
Feel free to msg me anytime for support! recovery is tough, but you can do it! 

Wow these are some great stories. Thank you ladies for sharing the experiance. I know this was not my post but it helps so much to here and relate to other people. This is a much more common problem then people even realize and you feel so ashamed and don't want to admit or tell anyone. Good luck to all of you and please feel free to ask me any questions or message me. I'm more then open about anything realted to the topic. I let an eating disorder rule my life for 7-8 years and paid the price mentally, physically, and in many relationships. One year ED free and I will always have those thoughts no doubt but they no longer rule my every breath and "I" have the power to say no. Ask God, your family, and decide for yourself and your little ones, I'm not doing this anymore.