It's official..

We lost our baby.. I'm still not quite sure how to deal with this.. I don't know what to do.. I'm trying to wrap my head around it still I guess.. I don't even know how to deal or cope with it.. It all started Friday night, hubby took me out to a movie and went we got home I got ready for bed and went potty, and when I wiped there was blood.. I called the advice nurse and they said since its not a lot just to relax and take it easy, that bleeding in early pregnancy can be normal.. So after that I just went to bed.. The next morning I woke up and the bleeding was still going on and it was a little bit more now.. So I called again and they said again just to take it easy (since there was really nothing they could do about it) and they told me they would set up a phone apt with the doctor.. Later that day the doc called and I told him what had been going on, he said that it did sound like I was miscarrying and that he wanted me to go to the lab to get blood drawn to test my levels, so Sunday I went in and did that.. They told me the results would be in the next day. So Monday morning I called to get the results. What I heard next was a complete shock.. My levels were only at 690.. 500 is considered pregnant   I would have been 8 weeks along   so after talking to the advice nurse again she thought it would be a god idea for me to come in and see my doc.. So hubby came and picked me up from work and we went to the hospital. We got in the room and the doc checked me and said that my cervix was open and that I was most likely having a miscarriage. She then did an ultrasound and revealed that there was nothing in my uterus at all.. She thinks because my levels were so slow that the baby stopped growing early on.. And that I had already passed it or was in the process of doing so.. Hearing that was a total shock, it's not something that you ever expect to happen to you, especially after having such an easy pregnancy before..

It has definitely helped me a lot getting this off my chest, but no matter how much you talk about it it still seems to hurt so much.. Even though I never got to see my baby or hear its heartbeat I was already so in love with her.. It's comforting though to know she's watching over us and her big brother..we love you baby and you will always be in our hearts!!! <3

So sorry hun   going through this is soooo hard just have to take it one day at a time <3 I lost my angel back in 2010 and I still think about her everyday I'm here if you need to chat

<blockquote><b>Quoting lisha+2:</b>" So sorry hun   going through this is soooo hard just have to take it one day at a time <3 I lost my angel back in 2010 and I still think about her everyday I'm here if you need to chat"</blockquote>




Thank you! It definitely helps having people to talk to that have gone through it!!

Quoting *Kara* Mr. Monkey Man's M:" <blockquote><b>Quoting lisha+2:</b>" So sorry hun   going through this is soooo hard ... [snip!] ... if you need to chat"</blockquote> Thank you! It definitely helps having people to talk to that have gone through it!!"

It really is .....just know you have a special angel baby watching over you now  

Quoting *Kara* Mr. Monkey Man's M:" We lost our baby.. I'm still not quite sure how to deal with this.. I don't know what to do.. I'm trying ... [snip!] ... though to know she's watching over us and her big brother..we love you baby and you will always be in our hearts!!! <3"

Nov 2011 the same happened to me. I was completely devastated. I am now about to have my first child but I still can't get over the loss of the first baby. I hope that you have a strong support system. I know if it weren't for SO I would have fell completely apart.

So sorry Kara.