I know I've posted a lot lately

but man. I keep going back and forth about the decision to keep or abort this pregnancy. every day is a different emotion. And today I feel it is the best choice to abort. I look at my beautiful little boy and want to give him the best life possible. the life he deserves. I want him to have a good life and right now I am not able to provide that for him. 2012 had brought many changes for me. Im in the middle of a divorce, no place to truly call home, a job that is so unbelievably demanding and exhausting and barely pays above minimum wage. I can't even afford car insurance.

I honestly don't know what I was thinking. I can't have 2 children that I can't afford to take care of on my own. Its just something o realize I don't want.

I feel no attachment to this pregnancy. I try to get myself excited by thinking about names and making lists and stuff but I just know deep down its not right. I can't do this. I just hope that God will forgive me and understand why I made this decision.

my appointment is Friday afternoon and im going. I need to stop going back and forth and just do it. but I am trying to think of a way to kind of have a "ceremony" of sorts to grieve this loss. because no matter how I look at it, it will always be a loss. but I know it's right.

Sounds like it's the right decision. Be strong. <3

Im sorry you are going through this. If you need someone to talk to, PM me at any time.   Just remind yourself you are edoing whats best for yourself and your child that is already here.

I didn't read everything because I'm just in the BR for a quick pee LOL while reading. But if you are even questioning this, I think abortion might not be for you.

It sounds like you have made your decision honey. You will always wonder or think maybe you should/should've changed your mind but you are doing what is best for you and your son. So anytime you start to ponder that, remember you are doing what is best. And a small ceremony afterwards is a wonderful idea!

You do what is best for you and your child. Weight the pros and cons, if this baby would make your struggle harder then I would personally abort. I hope the best for you. Hugs*

thanks for the replies ladies. I know it's for the best for my son. his quality of life will be so much better this way.

Quoting Maddiesmommy08:"

No it is not. And you can not post about adoption in this thread if the OP doesnt want to do adoption.

Quoting pretty 'n' pink:" thanks for the replies ladies. I know it's for the best for my son. his quality of life will be so much better this way."

My thoughts are with you. <3

<blockquote><b>Quoting Maddiesmommy08:</b>" is adoption an option? "</blockquote>




No it's not.

It sounds like you're making the best choice for you and your family which is all you can do. Good luck momma! <3

<blockquote><b>Quoting Yurvette [♥]:</b>" My thoughts are with you. <3"</blockquote>




Thank you

It sounds like you are making the best decision for your LO and yourself. Good luck mama<3

<blockquote><b>Quoting Safka9973:</b>" I didn't read everything because I'm just in the BR for a quick pee LOL while reading. But if you are even questioning this, I think abortion might not be for you."</blockquote>



I have to agree with this I had an abortion a year and a half ago due to special circumstances (see my about me). I didn't want to so it, and I have atruggled with the pain, guilt, loss, depression etc ever since. Of you are questioning it, going back and forth, I don't think it is what's right for you. Now don't get me wrong, I am pro-choice all the way, and God does forgive (He's pretty amazing). I made my decision because it was best for all involved, and if you TRULY feel 1000% that it is what is best, then don't waste time.

In the event you choose to keep the baby, know that if you are blessed with a baby, God will surely help provide. I'm not saying its easy, bc it's not, but it is possible  

No matter your decision, if you need to talk, feel free to PM me. I'd be happy to help.