Today's blog- my loss

I blogged today about my loss last month. Not sure if it will help anyone or whatever, but just thought I'd share. I needed to get my feelings down.

http://elliebean78.blogspot.com/2013/01/loss.html

I read it all..

I can so relate to how you felt with your first M/C, i was the exact same *hugs*

Im sorry for your loss & hope that as the weeks go by it'll become easier to deal with and you'll be at peace with yourself.

The only thing that helped me acknowledge it, grieve & heal etc was time.

xx

Thank you. <3 I just feel so numb. I mean I'm "down" and feeling sad, but I cant deal with it or move past it. I guess I cant fully describe my emotions right now other than just... numb. I'm sorry for your loss as well.  

This blog is a beautiful nightmare... Beautiful because you expressed so well everything that I was feeling 7 short months ago...a nightmare because I know all too well the pain and pushing things aside. I know the fact of how much it hurts and to not let that hurt hit, until one day you just can't hold it back anymore. Depression sinks in, your mind dwells on every little thing that could have been   I teared up reading this, I do feel your pain..I was a few days shy of 12 weeks when I found out I lost my angel. It was more than grief for me, I was broken. then the pain of telling everyone..the alarms I had forgotten to take off my phone for milestones...the canceled gender ultrasound etc... I'm so sorry for your loss, just know if you ever need someone to talk to..I'm just a private message away. (((Hugs))) btw my due date was 10 days ago

Quoting **§~~emily~~§**:" This blog is a beautiful nightmare... Beautiful because you expressed so well everything that I was ... [snip!] ... just know if you ever need someone to talk to..I'm just a private message away. (((Hugs))) btw my due date was 10 days ago"

Omg... I am so so sorry!   I can feel the pain in your post as well. I have no idea what I'll be like on my due date... and I keep getting emails saying how many weeks I am. And the doctor's office called about my ultrasound I had scheduled a while back. Im just so numb. Little by little it's coming out, but I know this is just a trickle, and the floodgates are going to open eventually and I'm going to be a complete mess. Right now, I'm just... ridiculously numb. Thank you for the offer about the PM, I really may take you up on that one of these days.

I'm so sorry mama.  
I felt every single heart-tug...
My first angel, Memphis, would've been 10 this past Christmas and I still get emotional. My more recent one, Jayla, is coming up on her 2nd.
Someone once told me losing a child is like raising one...it's a lifelong process. And it's so true!
*hugs*
Btw, I'm gonna follow you.

Quoting Mrs Mia Wallace:" I'm so sorry mama.   I felt every single heart-tug... My first angel, Memphis, would've been 10 this ... [snip!] ... once told me losing a child is like raising one...it's a lifelong process. And it's so true! *hugs* Btw, I'm gonna follow you."

Thank you! I'm so sorry for your losses as well. It's awful. Every September I get so sad because mine would be turning 10 this year as well.... And please do! I'm not very interesting though. ;)

It still hurts a lot of time but it is finally getting easier...I think my current pregnancy helps that a lot though

Quoting **§~~emily~~§**:" It still hurts a lot of time but it is finally getting easier...I think my current pregnancy helps that a lot though"

I bet..   How nervous are you now?

<blockquote><b>Quoting Patches O'houlihan:</b>" I bet..   How nervous are you now?"</blockquote>




More and more the closer I get to my ultrasound day, I haven't gotten really attached this time either.. my hubby really hasn't either...I'm sure we will get there, but still