Now officially freaking the $%*# out

I'm 98% sure I have an incisional hernia from a surgery i had in april. Everything I've read and seen and been told by the triage nurse is that I have to wait at least 6 months till after the baby to have it fixed. Everything else says DO NO WAIT TO REPAIR HERNIAS! DANGER DANGER!! BADBADBAD the longer I wait the worse and worse it gets. And some of them get bigger than a basketball in just a few months and I have to wait half a smurfing year. I am so smurfing scared right now and I'm home alone so I just keep reading this smurf and sobbing uncontrollably. They say repairing it with a stitch almost always results in a reoccurance but I'm reading the mesh method has a ton of problems which includes having chronic pain and I already smurfing have SEVERE chronic pain in my back and legs and I can't handle more... ANd it means I'm going to have to have two surgeries, the csection and the hernia repair..I'm allergic to all prescription painkillers, the only thing I wasent allergic to they stopped smurfing making because it was "an old drug". awesome. thanks.
I was hoping it would at least be laprscopic so that I wouldnt be cut open again (the surgery in april was by a douchebag surgeon at 3 am so instead of laprascopically he sliced me open from my belly button to my cleavage) and it took me 4 months to heal) but half the stuff i've read says they dont do laprascopic unless it's under 10 cm and it's already bigger than that. I am totally smurfing screwed and theres nothing i can smurfing do about it and I'm just really really scared and pissed off and frustrated... I don't know how much more of this smurf I can take. It just seems like everything that can go wrong is going wrong right now. I would just really smurfing like if i could be healthy for more than one week. I've been sick for over a year now with various issues and I just smurfing want to be better.

Sorry I just really needed to vent. My husband is so stressed out he's waking up at 4 in the morning needing me to reassure him things are gonna be okay and I dont want to bother him with all this so I have to be a rock for him and everyone else and I just have no where to get this out.

I have a pretty big umbilical hernia and my drs only asked me if I knew it was there. And that was it. They didn't even talk to me about repairing it. I know it's gotten bigger too. I guess they have to wait until the baby is out first to do anything about it. I hope everything works out for you!

She said it's hard to tell if it's an incisional hernia or just the weakened muscles from the abdominal surgery there separating weird and bulging out. not much they can do but keep an eye on it and if it gets worse they will send me to a surgeon, but that the surgeon is highly unlikely to do anything while I'm pregnant. Soo yay.. just. more questions and worry really   She said to try light abdominal exercises and see if that strains it too much, if not to keep doing those and to get a pregnancy band to support my fat in the meanwhile.

Quoting Unique Mama:" She said it's hard to tell if it's an incisional hernia or just the weakened muscles from the abdominal ... [snip!] ... and see if that strains it too much, if not to keep doing those and to get a pregnancy band to support my fat in the meanwhile."

I'm being sent to a surgeon while I'm still in the hospital after giving birth. Yay..   Apparently mine is a lot bigger than I thought  

Ugh   But it's good that they'll get it all done in one fell swoop, will be better than having to recover from one and then go back to be put down again you know?

I can not find any of these damn preggo bands the dr wants me to gt thatll fit my fat ass   Going to go to the motherhood store to try on their biggest one but it looks like it says 45" and my hips are almost 60" now   Might snap off and take out someone's eye LOL