Quoting Raωkeℓ:" That would drain me, too. I use to talk about Jesus, be all Christian and what not, like we're talking ... [snip!] ... all the time. I want to believe mow that it's all in your head. Your tell yourself something enough times you believe it..."
figuring out what to believe is hard. i have decided that i am going to be open minded. Years ago i decided what i DID NOT believe and have not looked back to do more research or soul searching. So I figure the concept of Jesus may not be wrong, I need to go by my heart. It is the Bible written by men that i do not believe or trust. So I am going to a seventh day adventist church on Saturday and a methodist church on Sunday haha. I am going to go, listen and then study some on my own and see how it feels. I am in the need of soul srearching and spirituality right now anyway. Cant hurt to try.