Why does it have to be so hard.

I would be roughly six months and five days today. I would know what my baby is even though I knew in my heart that it was a boy I would have pictures and everything but I don't even get those. Just a few positive pregnancy tests which I regret throwing away. I guess because it was the only proof I had that I was pregnant... Idk though..
I found this posted by someone who lost a baby too.


I thought of you and closed my eyes, And prayed to God today. I asked what makes a Mother, And I know I heard him say: A mother has a baby, This we know is true. But, God, can you be a mother, When your baby’s not with you? Yes, you can he replied, With confidence in his voice. I give many women babies, When they leave is not their choice. Some I send for a lifetime, And others for a day. And some I send to feel your womb, But there's no need to stay. I just don’t understand this God, I want my baby here. He took a breath and cleared his throat, And then I saw a tear. I wish that I could show you, What your child is doing today, If you could see your child smile, With other children who say: We go to earth and learn our lessons, Of love and life and fear. My mommy loved me oh so much, I got to come straight here. I feel so lucky to have a mom, Who had so much love for me. I learned my lessons very quickly, My mommy set me free. I miss my mommy oh so much, But I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep, On her pillow’s where I lay. I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek, And whisper in her ear. “Mommy don’t be sad today, I’m your baby and I’m here.” So you see my dear sweet one, Your children are Ok. Your babies are here in My home, They’ll be at heavens gate for you. So now you see what makes a mother. It’s the feeling in your heart. It’s the love you had so much of, Right from the very start. Though some on earth may not realize you are a mother, until their time is done. They’ll be up here with Me one day, And you’ll know that you’re the best one!

Quoting Raindancer:" I would be roughly six months and five days today. I would know what my baby is even though I knew in ... [snip!] ... you are a mother, until their time is done. They’ll be up here with Me one day, And you’ll know that you’re the best one!"

I''m sorry for your loss mama. I know how you feel.. I would be 6 weeks away from my due date right now   It still hurts, especially when I see those February due mama's that I use to talk with in the beginning of the DDT. It hurts so much. The same month I lost my baby I also lost my best-friend, who oddly enough had a Birthday in February, around the same time I was due. It made it THAT much harder for me to cope. hugs!

  I'm so sorry for your loss! Hugs.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Raindancer:</b>" I would be roughly six months and five days today. I would know what my baby is even though I knew in ... [snip!] ... you are a mother, until their time is done. They’ll be up here with Me one day, And you’ll know that you’re the best one!"</blockquote>




I'm sorry for your loss, loosing a child is by far the hardest thing a mother has to ever go through ( in my opinion) death is a part of life and when we think of death we think of it as when where older, not as a parent loosing their child. I too lost my son Cameron when I was five almost six months pregnant. It's been over a year abc it still effects me in ways I couldnt ever have imagined. If you ever need to talk you can pm me, btw my name is danielle

All I can say is that it gets better. It has too.
It's not something you can ever overcome, but it has to ease up at some point.
I would be 36 weeks, or 21 weeks..if I didn't have my losses.
Know that you have support here.