Worried :/

I wanted to EBF with DS until he was a year old. It was a big deal to me. I got gallstones right after I had him and could barely eat anything at all, I tried so hard to keep my supply up, but without being able to eat anything almost ever I just wasn't making enough and I had to stop BFing at 2.5 months and it broke my heart. I felt like a total failure. Now that it's almost time for DS2 to get here I'm starting to worry that I'm going to fail again. I'll have a 22 month old running around, school full time, work full time, what if I can't sit on the couch and let DS2 nurse all day long like I did with DS1 and I don't produce enough again? My mom didn't BF me and I was so sick my entire life and I'm so afraid if I can't BF for at least a year DS2 won't be as healthy as he could be. After I quit BFing DS1 he stopped hitting his milestones early and now he's speech delayed and other parents act like he's weird and I feel like it's my fault. I'm worried I won't be able to work and finish my degree (this is my last semester) and make sure DS1 doesn't feel left out or like he's second best and EBF DS2 and it's really starting to upset me   I'm an emotional roller coaster lately  

Just take it one day at a time. It will all be ok.

I'm sure your son's speech delays didn't have anything to do with formula or breastfeeding.



I too was worried that I wouldn't be able to provide breast milk for my son, I work full time and travel a few times a year.

He is now almost a year old, and through 1 childless vacation and 4 business trips, he has only had breast milk. , I really didn't think I could do it, but I did. One day at a time.


*hugs*

had the same issue with my first but I had surgery and had my gall bladder removed. Did you have that done? Anyway just start doing it soon as the baby is born. I regret not doing that with my first I had a very hard time getting him to breastfeed. I was so sad when I had no milk left for him to breastfeed. I think as long as you make time to feed or at least pump enough while you're away you'll always produce enough and should not run out. I know how hard that will be with your busy schedule but talk to your boss and your professor into giving you 10-15 minutes to pump at least every three hours. Also stop worrying it won't help the situation. I know that is easier said than done. I do it all the time but we have to find a balance because stress only makes things worst. I hope this was helpful  .

I never breast fed my munchkin and its wonderful that you tried and you gave him all the good antibodies and such when you did breast feed those months. But honestly I work full time, I'm have 14-16 credit hours in nursing school and my daughter is early on everything so your not a failure everyone's kids develop at a different rate.i have a girl in my class that used to just go pump hen she had breaks   he isn't breast fed but he is breast milk fed which is one option for you  

Thanks, ladies. I did have my gall bladder out right after I stopped BFing. I was pumping every 2 hours at work, going home on my lunch breaks to BF him and when I was home he was on the boob 24/7. It wasn't enough. I'm terrified of going through feeling that sense of failure again. I was completely broken for weeks. Every time I poured him a bottle I bawled. My mom criticized me and told me it was stupid to be so upset over something that "didn't matter" and MIL made me feel like it was awful that I couldn't do it. She was always giving me articles she pulled from magazines about the benefits of BFing like I didn't already know. I don't want to go through that again  

Some times you just can't breast feed an it's not your fault my mom nearly starved my sister because she didn't make enough, as long as your little ones are fed you mother in law should shush. you tried your best and I know your upset but better to have a formula fed baby than no baby at all, you did what was best for your baby and your health!I think it's wonderful that you even kept trying.

You should never let anyone make you feel like that. You should ignore the negativity and sometimes you just have to let the people you love have it....that way they know not to cross those lines. If you know that you have tried it all then you should be happy with yourself. Did you try fenugreek? I heard it makes you smell like maple syrup constantly but it helps. If you willing to sweat and smell like maple syrup constantly then try it. If I paid attention to all the stupid crap some of my family members has said no one would like me because I would have ripe each and every one of them a new one lol. My mom and one of my SIL would constantly say to my son whenever he cried oh what did she do to you...she does not love you, That made me so damn angry but I just ignored it. Try your best to do the same.

I am 100% positive that his speech delays don't have to do with what he was fed mama. Some children need speech therapy and that is completely ok. It's nothing to be ashamed of and if people judge then screw em mama. You did your best!

When your baby comes just latch em a lot and pump while you are busy. If you need multiple hands for your toddler maybe purchase a moby wrap and carry him around. It is far easier to multi-task. Just remember to take it one day at a time.
You are doing the best you can and that is all any mama can do. It does not make you a failure. That makes you an amazing mom.