Quoting girlnextdoor:" Hi Boots---I've read your posts and my heart goes out to you. I know your little one is due very soon. Just wondering how you are doing.... I'm praying for you."
Hey everyone, thanks for all the messages...Figured I would take a minute to send out an update.
No real signs of labor yet. I'm ready for this little guy to come, but we've still got a few days before he's due, so we'll see when he decides to come.
He came home yesterday. Not for long...he just came to pack a suitcase. Unfortunately, both girls were here when he came by. Of course there were questions, especially from Rue. So I did have to tell them that Daddy had made some really bad choices, and that he didn't want to be married to Mama anymore. I know Zoe has no clue what I'm talking about, and I don't know that Rue does either.
I tried to talk to him about what we're supposed to do now, and all he had to say was that he wanted some space. That was it...Other than that, He really just ignored me the whole time. It's like, I felt I didn't even know him. I've never seen him the way he was yesterday. He wouldn't talk about the girls, or the baby...He just walked away.
I ended up telling my Mom, and they've opened up their place to us as well, if he all of a sudden decides he wants the house or something. I honestly don't know if I could even fight him for it right now. I feel like any fight I had in me just disappeared when he left. He just walked away, totally ignored me, and ignored Rue. Rue has no idea what's going on or why all of a sudden her Dad wants nothing to do with her.
Other than that, there's really not much to say. I don't know what else I can say. Somewhere I lost him, and I don't know if I can get him back. I don't even know if I want to get him back. Right now I just need to survive the next couple weeks...Other than that, my Dad's looking into a lawyer for me, if he decides to go through with this. I don't know if I even want to fight it, anymore. I can't see myself being in any sort of a relationship with him. We'll never have what we did...I'm ready to just let him go at this point.