I just want...

This to be over the more I bleed the more I think of the baby that's falling to pieces inside if me I know it wasn't very big or anything but it meant true world to me.
Every time I sit on the toilet all I can think about is what my Angel baby could have been. /:
This is the worst most depressing thing I have ever experienced.
Im cleaning my house from top to bottom trying not to think about it but it's barley helping if at all.

I'm so sorry  

I'm so sorry  

I just can't think straight, I want it out of my head.
I want this baby to have been ok.
I don't understand what I did to deserve this!
After five years of trying I finally get pregnant & it gets taken right from me.

Quoting Icyee:" I just can't think straight, I want it out of my head. I want this baby to have been ok. I don't understand ... [snip!] ... I don't understand what I did to deserve this! After five years of trying I finally get pregnant & it gets taken right from me."

Don't give up. I had a very hard time as well. I have a 7 year old & now a 3 month old. I had many losses in between. Just keep your head up.

<blockquote><b>Quoting T&J+4:</b>" Don't give up. I had a very hard time as well. I have a 7 year old & now a 3 month old. I had many losses in between. Just keep your head up. "</blockquote>




I just can't deal with this.
What if it happens again.

Quoting Icyee:" <blockquote><b>Quoting T&J+4:</b>" Don't give up. I had a very hard time as well. ... [snip!] ... many losses in between. Just keep your head up. "</blockquote> I just can't deal with this. What if it happens again."

It might. But you will never get what you want in the end if you give up.
Trust me I KNOW it sucks. I lost 8 babies. It never gets easier. But I never gave up & now I have my precious son. If I had given up trying I would never have gotten to have him.

Quoting Icyee:" <blockquote><b>Quoting T&J+4:</b>" Don't give up. I had a very hard time as well. ... [snip!] ... many losses in between. Just keep your head up. "</blockquote> I just can't deal with this. What if it happens again."

Don't give up hope. I know it sucks... just keep positive thoughts (I know, not as easy as it sounds) keep your head up and focus on everything positive