re: Anxiety disorder...

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mommy2Kay:</b>" I know, I try to hard to fight it but it's really hard. A friend of mine says that it's your own brain going against itself, how can I win that fight? It's so hard!"</blockquote>




All I can say is express yourself to a professional. That's all that has helped me, I go once a week, and twice a week on a particularly bad week, find a non profit center and take advantage of it.

Quoting whack a mole crazy:" Are you unemployed because you can not hold a job due to anxiety? Or because jobs are not hiring? If ... [snip!] ... was on disability for a while. I aquired therapy and started taking meds that helped me so much. I can now function in society."

Just because I can't find a job. Being unemployed has gotten my anxiety worse because I feel stuck and out of control, it's depressing.

Quoting Marlee*TTC*:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mommy2Kay:</b>" I know, I try to hard to fight it but it's ... [snip!] ... helped me, I go once a week, and twice a week on a particularly bad week, find a non profit center and take advantage of it."

I'll try to find one but with the research I have done, I have had no success. I feel like this state really sucks when it comes to health care, NY is so much better..

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mommy2Kay:</b>" I know, I try to hard to fight it but it's really hard. A friend of mine says that it's your own brain going against itself, how can I win that fight? It's so hard!"</blockquote>


You can't win the fight cause its not a fight that can be win. You need to just calm, relax and accdpt what your body is doing because its your body doing this, not you. Telling yourself that it will pass cause its passed the other times can be relieving.

If you have suicidal thoughts though, then its really gone past your control and you should go to the ER. We all reach that point where we need an extra hand to help pull us out of a bad rut.

It can also be helpful to make sure someone around you knows when you are having an attack. I always tell DH or my mom. I get these feelings like I'm going to die and knowing that they know to watch me to make sure I don't need medical help always calms me a bit.


If you need to seek emergency counselling just forget the billing matter. Hospitals can work out payment plans and a lot offer help within the hospital to lower costs.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mommy2Kay:</b>" I'll try to find one but with the research I have done, I have had no success. I feel like this state really sucks when it comes to health care, NY is so much better.."</blockquote>




I hope you find someone you can trust and talk to. It has helped me greatly, I live at an 8 as I said earlier and it sucks so bad. It affects my life and marriage, but talking to my new therapist helps plus the Valium Xanax and ambien lol

Quoting {tamz}:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mommy2Kay:</b>" I know, I try to hard to fight it but it's ... [snip!] ... just forget the billing matter. Hospitals can work out payment plans and a lot offer help within the hospital to lower costs."

I can't really tell anyone, they won't understand and will just start making jokes about it, my family would be the first. My friends would understand more but they are all in NY.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mommy2Kay:</b>" I'm scared of the dark too, I have always been. I hate being alone, but if I'm in a crowd I feel like ... [snip!] ... is just staring at me and fear someone will do something. I am so tired of fighting this, I just wish I could be normal."</blockquote>




Dont feel ashamed. I used to shower with the curtain open because i thought something was going to attack me. Along with my bipolar i was diagnosed with a acute form of schizophrenia. I still sometimes have moments where i am honestly afraid of things not real. My meds help a lot though

Quoting Marlee*TTC*:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mommy2Kay:</b>" I'll try to find one but with the research ... [snip!] ... it sucks so bad. It affects my life and marriage, but talking to my new therapist helps plus the Valium Xanax and ambien lol"

Yeah I have been reflecting a lot on my whole life and I can see how it has affected it, even as a child.. I have no idea how I was never treated for this, I had panic attacks all the time in grade school all the way to 8th grade (It was the same school). It was so bad that 'til this day, 10 years later, the nurse still remembers me.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mommy2Kay:</b>" I can't really tell anyone, they won't understand and will just start making jokes about it, my family would be the first. My friends would understand more but they are all in NY."</blockquote>




Who cares what your family says as long as you feel better, YOU feeling better is the goal

Quoting whack a mole crazy:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mommy2Kay:</b>" I'm scared of the dark too, I have always been. ... [snip!] ... form of schizophrenia. I still sometimes have moments where i am honestly afraid of things not real. My meds help a lot though"

I'm like that! If I shower when everyone is asleep, I have to get out quick because I feel like something is going to attack me and I can feel it's presence. There a window in the shower and I make sure all blinds are closed properly so if someone wants to shoot me they can't see the shadow of where I'm standing..I know that sounds freaking crazy!

sounds like you shouldn't use the internet to self diagnose yourself.

Maybe you should talk to a professional.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mommy2Kay:</b>" Yeah I have been reflecting a lot on my whole life and I can see how it has affected it, even as a child.. ... [snip!] ... the way to 8th grade (It was the same school). It was so bad that 'til this day, 10 years later, the nurse still remembers me. "</blockquote>




I has sexual and physical trauma resulting in life threading situations, so please don't be ashamed. Please please seek help, it was the single greatest thing I have done. And if my therapist commits me then I believe she did so wanting me to get better.

Quoting Marlee*TTC*:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Mommy2Kay:</b>" I can't really tell anyone, they won't understand ... [snip!] ... all in NY."</blockquote> Who cares what your family says as long as you feel better, YOU feeling better is the goal"

Yeah, I know they would do it because they don't understand. I'm just thinking of having a talk with my brother and just tell him everything I go through everyday and the way I feel. I just really need to build the courage, I have a really hard time opening myself to people, I don't like people to think I'm weak.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Mommy2Kay:</b>" I can't really tell anyone, they won't understand and will just start making jokes about it, my family would be the first. My friends would understand more but they are all in NY."</blockquote>


I'm sorry. I was lucky I guess cause my mom used to get them also.

My mom lives 500 miles away and telling her still makes me feel better. I know she will keep checking in on me and if something happened she could call the cops, but nothing ever happens.

It seems like there really are a lot more symptoms that seem to be ongoing. I would really seek professional help. See if you can find a place that will allow you to make payments.

Quoting Devil Duckie:" sounds like you shouldn't use the internet to self diagnose yourself. Maybe you should talk to a professional. "

I think I already know that, hence mentioning the fact that I can't afford it, using the word "may" and not mentioning a specific disorder....