re: Suicide?

tried once, think about it daily if unmedicated, good days and bad days. whole family suffers from major/severe depression. I would never really do it now bc of how hurt everyone that cares about me would be, or what it would do to my kids and hubby. them and my gma are my reasons why I'll just curl up and go to sleep instead of doing something permanent.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Jesus ♥'s Me:</b>" I've never actually tried to commit suicide before but I've had thoughts run in my mind like "omg I'd ... [snip!] ... eta: those thoughts just run through my head when I get really frustrated and I feel like I can't take much more anymore."</blockquote>




I cant go through this hell I've been having to put up with for years. Even with medications I go through hell everyday. I want to be put out of my misery. I feel selfish being alive...

Quoting HopingforaMiracle:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Jesus ♥'s Me:</b>" I've never actually tried to commit ... [snip!] ... for years. Even with medications I go through hell everyday. I want to be put out of my misery. I feel selfish being alive..."

What do you mean you can't go through this hell everyday? I'm sorry you feel like you're being selfish by being alive, but you're not. There are people who need you and love you. Be positive. <3

I've attempted once. I tried to overdose on a bunch of pills, but as soon as I did, I regretted it. I was too scared to tell my mom and I was so scared to fall asleep. I was so thankful when I woke up the next morning.
Now, not a day goes by where I don't think about suicide. I don't think I will ever attempt it again because I know my girls need their mother in their life and the thought of death scares the smurf out of me. The only people I have in my life really are my husband and mom. I don't like talking to my mom about this stuff because it breaks her heart. I try talking to my husband, but he doesn't want to hear it. He thinks if he ignores me, all my problems go away. I know I should go see someone for help, but I'm not the type of person who wants to admit I have problems and I hate dragging people into my emo depression.
I'm just hoping this year is a year of good changes. I could use it!

Is there a private thread someone could make where we could all go talk? Maybe TWLOHA thread?

Quoting Tiffany ღ:" Is there a private thread someone could make where we could all go talk? Maybe TWLOHA thread? "

i could add anyone that wanted to, to my PT and make a PTOT?

<blockquote><b>Quoting Jesus ♥'s Me:</b>" What do you mean you can't go through this hell everyday? I'm sorry you feel like you're being selfish by being alive, but you're not. There are people who need you and love you. Be positive. <3"</blockquote>




I will PM you if you would like me to   I don't want to put out there publicly what I go through everyday beyond my 10-15 panic attacks a day. Thank you. It's extremely hard and everybody tells me I'm not selfish but I can't help thinking the way I do

Quoting Tiffany ღ:" Is there a private thread someone could make where we could all go talk? Maybe TWLOHA thread? "

There was a thread on here that was ptot. What does twloha mean though?

Quoting HopingforaMiracle:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Jesus ♥'s Me:</b>" What do you mean you can't go through ... [snip!] ... attacks a day. Thank you. It's extremely hard and everybody tells me I'm not selfish but I can't help thinking the way I do"

I've heard about your panic attacks. And sure if you want to PM me, you can. I'm here to listen.

Quoting ✩BG Addict✩:" i could add anyone that wanted to, to my PT and make a PTOT?"

Yes yes yes! I think that would be an awesome idea right? you are awesome  

Quoting ☠ℛawr☠:" I've attempted once. I tried to overdose on a bunch of pills, but as soon as I did, I regretted it. I ... [snip!] ... and I hate dragging people into my emo depression. I'm just hoping this year is a year of good changes. I could use it!"

Praying that 2013 brings you lots of changes. <3

My mother overdosed on pills before and they sent her to a rehab for like 2 weeks, it was horrible. They had to pump her stomach and everything. Even to this day, she still talks about how she'd be better off dead but she hasn't attempted it again.

<blockquote><b>Quoting ✩BG Addict✩:</b>" i could add anyone that wanted to, to my PT and make a PTOT?"</blockquote>




Please  

Quoting HopingforaMiracle:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Jesus ♥'s Me:</b>" What do you mean you can't go through ... [snip!] ... attacks a day. Thank you. It's extremely hard and everybody tells me I'm not selfish but I can't help thinking the way I do"

i know what you mean in a way. sometimes i feel selfish for being alive. that everyone is better off without me. and people would be happier if i was gone.

i know RATIONALLY, that can't be true. their actions show me that can't be true...but try telling my IRRATIONAL mind that. i just convince myself over and over again that no one cares, and i'm unloved.


i hope things get better for you hun! *hugs*

Quoting ✩BG Addict✩:" i could add anyone that wanted to, to my PT and make a PTOT?"

You can add me if you want to. I'm here to listen to people. I've never attempted suicide but I'd love to be a shoulder to lean on.