Quoting Stacey Cassidy:" thanks ladies. i think what worries me is the last 2 family members have lost there babies one of them ... [snip!] ... truthfully honest the only way i can properly communicate with people is at home through this computer lol. sad i know "
It's understandable that you would worry when you know others who have MC'ed. Although it's hard for you to meet new people in groups, I really really think you would enjoy a mom group. Take your kids to the library for story time and just SEE other moms. That way, the focus is not on YOU or meeting PEOPLE, but your kids to get to enjoy story time. And one day maybe you will meet another mom there that you can become friends with. ;-) Then you can ask her if she'd like to go to a LLL meeting with you or something, and you don't have to do that alone, either. :-D
Online chats are often helpful, but will never be able to replace having a cup of coffee (or whatever) with a person in real life. When you reach out to help someone else cope with something, it lightens your own heart and you will feel much better than if you are focused on telling someone else about your worries.
I did do counseling, but I felt too much that they were just there for a paycheck and to make a few notes to review before the next time I walked in. I had a couple that I really like and saw one for several years, but after he moved away I never found another I liked because it felt like too much work to dig up the past again. If you go for counseling, tell them you don't wanna dig up the past, you just want to address your current concerns and develop strategies for coping TODAY.
#1 Each day, write down something positive from the day. If you can focus on those positives more, the worries won't keep taking up all your thoughts. Easier said than done, I KNOW, but there are tons of strategies like this that can improve your day-to-day and you just have to find the one that really works for you.