Really lonely *trigger warning*

I am really lonely. I am having a really hard time right now and trying to deal with some serious smurfe, and it feels like I have no one.

My mum makes me feel bad every time she comes around. I will ask if she wants to hang out and she takes that as take the kids and leave me alone. So she does. I can't remember the last time my mother hugged me. I had a mental breakdown and had to go to hospital and still she can't hug me.

This will be the third day I haven't eaten. I can't brig myself to cos honestly, I hate myself that much. I stared at a protein shake for half an hour yesterday then threw it down the sink. I feel really sick and I know it's cos I'm not eating anything. But there's no one to talk to. SO doens't know what to say so when we get into serious conversations about my mental health and my issues he cracks jokes. I know that's just his way but I need some real support. My mum is always telling me that if I was skinny like my sister I would be happy so she's no help, she would probably encourage me to not eat.

And I have no friends.

I'm really lonely and I feel like I'm in a deep dark hole that I can't get out of.          

I remember the hospital set something up for therapy. Have you gotten to go yet? I'm sorryyou are having such a hard time.

I'm very sorry

Aw <3
I know how this feels all too well. Im sorry  
Try writing A journal. All your feelings, thoughts, or every time you're feeling lonely. It really does help. If it doesn't, have you tried therapy?

I'm very sorry. Have you thought about looking into a support group for people with eating disorders?

Aww, LSP. You have me love <3
I wish I could hug you irl.
Eat, deary. I had an eating disorder in high school, if you need to talk you can pm me.

Do they allow you to be admitted for med adjustments where you are?
Over here if someone is suicidal and goes in they will generally admit them willingly and put them on a hold.

Quoting Old Greg:" Aww, LSP. You have me love <3 I wish I could hug you irl. Eat, deary. I had an eating disorder in high school, if you need to talk you can pm me."

So did I :/
You can Pm me as well anytime.

Quoting Michael Myers:" So did I :/ You can Pm me as well anytime. "

Thanks momma.
I overcame anorexia and now I'm a chef :3

I'm very sorry I wish I could be your friend.

Im sorry You can talk to me and be my friend

Quoting Mel & a girl named Pey:" I remember the hospital set something up for therapy. Have you gotten to go yet? I'm sorryyou are having such a hard time."

Yeah I went to emergency psych services and they upped my meds. Don't have another appointment for two weeks in order to see if the meds do anything

Quoting Old Greg:" Thanks momma. I overcame anorexia and now I'm a chef :3"

Congratulations! Thats a really huge accomplishment, you should be so proud of yourself.

<blockquote><b>Quoting LumpySpacePrincess:</b>" Yeah I went to emergency psych services and they upped my meds. Don't have another appointment for two weeks in order to see if the meds do anything"</blockquote>


Well I really hope they get things situated for you. I wish I could do something to help other than listen when you need it.

I tried writing a journal. I found my journal and I was going to start up again but then I saw that all I wrote in it was how I was smurf for eating, and how much I hated myself. Brought me even further down.