Quoting suzyq463:" Oh my! You have a lot on your plate, and no time to grieve, no time to take enough time for just you, ... [snip!] ... maybe having some in-person support would really boost you, plus you could make some mom friends to lean on and have fun with."
Thanks for your reply!! I might have to check into something like that. I really don't have any time for myself. Not only am I a SAHM to 2, one with special medical needs I also homeschool both my kids. I literally have no time for anything else right now. I school, cook, clean and go to bed. Then the same thing the next day all over again. Throw on top of that all the appts, med supplies to order and keep track of, bills to pay and general errands every family has and I am just overwhelmed. I know I can do it and it will all work out, it's just been rough lately. I am just feeling kinda guilty, like my wanting another baby is going to hurt the rest of my family. And even worse what if I created a life that will be sick and suffer as my DD has. I feel so wrong for thinking like this. I want this baby, I know he will be a blessing and the whole family is excited. It's all the what ifs right now.