i feel...idk

i am the second oldest in a family of four girls. even though there was an even number i am considered the middle child. my mom always very obviously showed favoritism and it was always obvious that it wasnt me. my dad used to always pull me to the side and tell me not to tell my other sisters but i was his favorite. i never told because i never wanted to hurt their feelings. i guess because i knew how much it hurt that my mom never showed me love i didnt want my sisters to go through that pain also. well i just found out that my dad used to pull all of us to the side and say that. i am 26 years old and idk, i feel like something i always held so dear... never was. i just feel sad and kinda stupid but i dont even know who to talk to about this because its such minor thing.

I'm sure you each had one thing that was his favorite about each of you. I know my favorite thing about my son that my daughter doesn't have is that he is such a little toughie and loves for mom to play trucks with him yet at the same time can be totally independent. My favorite thing about my daughter is that she is all girly.  

I can completely understand how that would be upsetting. That was your thing that made you feel special and then you find out it wasn't your thing at all. Like when someone tells you how pretty you look but then they go and tell the next 10 girls they see the same thing. Kind of losses it effect.

I'm sorry. It's really smurffy though.

Maybe he was trying to make up for the fact that your mom was distant?