I just cant wrap my head around it. The only close person I know who lost a baby is my mom and when I told her she just said sorry. Then started talking about how her comp. And tablet are broken. ._. Not to mention being 4000 miles away from everyone jist sucks :/ last night I spent drinking wine and caffene and pigging out I was doing everytging right. I wish dh was effected... He keeps asking me whats wrong when I just start crying and its like seriously smurf? But I guess hes trying. I just want this bleeding to go away. Its a constant reminder.