re: rainbow babies.

my first pregnancy was a loss at 5-6 weeks. That was after 6 months of ttc. Then it took 7 more months for us to get pregnant with our daughter. And one try to get pregnant with our son.

I just cant wrap my head around it. The only close person I know who lost a baby is my mom and when I told her she just said sorry. Then started talking about how her comp. And tablet are broken. ._. Not to mention being 4000 miles away from everyone jist sucks :/ last night I spent drinking wine and caffene and pigging out   I was doing everytging right. I wish dh was effected... He keeps asking me whats wrong when I just start crying and its like seriously smurf? But I guess hes trying. I just want this bleeding to go away. Its a constant reminder.  

And thank you ladies for the positive remarks it helps to.know that it doesnt go away.but gets better and im not done with kids period.