And finally talk to SO about our intimacy issues and what the future holds for us in that department. I really don't know how he's going to take this since he hates talking about feelings and such, and would rather that we just ignore that these problems are happening. He's holding out that one day I'll just be better and things will go back to the way they were when we first met, which is stupid because that was over 10 years ago.
I'm really really scared that tonight instead of being the start of a new era for us is actually going to be the end of us.
Just remember he loves you. And if he is willing to make things better, he will work hard to change whatever is going on despite the fact you have been together for as long as you have.
Chin up and the best of luck!