having a very hard time right now(kinda long)

This time of year has been very hard for me. Last year in November I lost my auntie. This lady meant so much to me,she was just like a second mother to me! We had always been very close and loosing her was very heart breaking for me. Then on December 13, I found out I was pregnant only a few days after my birthday. My bf and I was very excited we had been together 3 years at the time! I was around 10 weeks when I found out that I was trying to have a miscarriage then on the 26 I passed what looked like to be the baby. So i went to the dr in January(the soon as they could see me) well from January to February I had went to 5different dr and none could tell me what was going on because my levels kept rising and dropping but ultrasound showed that I had passed everything. I ended up going to Vanderbilt in Nashville and they told me I needed a d&c asap. I had one the next day and they said it looked like I was pregnant with twins and only passed one. It was very very heart breaking for me and my bf. Then in October of this year I lost my uncle in a car wreck. This all just seems like a bad dream
Sorry lady's just needed to vent

I'm so sorry for all your losses, I lost the person closest to me, my mom, 9 years ago. The pain never stops but at some point you accept it. If you ever need to talk, you can pm me.

I am so very sorry for your lost. I couldn't image loosing my mother. And thank you
Some times are just harder than others. I think it's a lot to do with the holidays. Loosing my baby has been really hard on me lately because its getting close to the time I found out. And when we told my bf family they all acted like it was the worst thing ever and said some very hurtful things but now that his brothers gf is pregnant they are all very excited and they have only been together a couple of month. Also seeing all my friends having babies it makes me what's so wrong with me why couldnt have i kept my babies