re: Is it normal...? (trigger warning)

Quoting ❤ ʘlive Oyl:" Maybe you have more cicular depression. It can come and go in waves. I notice sometimes my meds are too ... [snip!] ... and sometimes they are just right. But I have anxiety disorder and insomnia to boot. So many damn drugs. I feel blah sometimes."

Hm. I'll definitely have to figure it out with my doctor. I'm just always so nervous about questioning things 'cause I'm afraid I look like I want more pills or something.  

I have social anxiety, but no insomnia. I have felt as though insomnia must suck a lot though. It doesn't sound pleasant.

Quoting Stl mama:" I wondered what it would be like to drive down an embankment... I am completely happy. I felt horrible to think that."

Oh me too! Except that I thought about what it would be like to veer off into oncoming traffic also. It's always either wondering about driving off an embankment or into oncoming traffic. But it doesn't happen often and I feel disgusted when it does. I'd never do it.

Quoting Dansen Squeekerz:" Hm. I'll definitely have to figure it out with my doctor. I'm just always so nervous about questioning ... [snip!] ... I have social anxiety, but no insomnia. I have felt as though insomnia must suck a lot though. It doesn't sound pleasant."

I hate that feeling. I know exactly how you feel. Like drug seeking behavior, just when you want to be involved in your health care. Eh... It pisses me off just thinking about it.

Quoting ❤ ʘlive Oyl:" I hate that feeling. I know exactly how you feel. Like drug seeking behavior, just when you want to be involved in your health care. Eh... It pisses me off just thinking about it."

Yeah. I felt anxious when he wanted to up my zoloft and I told him it would make my hands shake too much and asked him if we could add something to it again, like we'd done before with Abilify. I hate doing that, and the man is a nice guy. I just am so anxious asking.

Quoting Dansen Squeekerz:" Yeah. I felt anxious when he wanted to up my zoloft and I told him it would make my hands shake too ... [snip!] ... to it again, like we'd done before with Abilify. I hate doing that, and the man is a nice guy. I just am so anxious asking."

  Hang in there and I really hope you find a solution. We are going through a lot of stuff now that I am finally pp. I think the ativan with zoloft works for me. I was on elavil too but was sweating and shaking like crazy.

I did not know this wasn't normal...

 

Quoting ❤ ʘlive Oyl:"   Hang in there and I really hope you find a solution. We are going through a lot of stuff now that ... [snip!] ... that I am finally pp. I think the ativan with zoloft works for me. I was on elavil too but was sweating and shaking like crazy."

Thanks. I hope so too, and I hope your meds continue to work for you.  

Quoting Ur Local Frnt Desk Clrk:" I did not know this wasn't normal...  "

I never thought it was abnormal until I thought to ask just now. >.>

I KNOW it's not normal but I've always felt that way. Even when I'm not "depressed" as some would say.

They say ppl who coment suicide are the happiest right before. Obviously not always the case, but I heard that.

Quoting ~Stephany~:" They say ppl who coment suicide are the happiest right before. Obviously not always the case, but I heard that."

I've heard that too. It's usually because they know they have a plan and they don't have to worry about things anymore.

Quoting HopingforaMiracle:" I KNOW it's not normal but I've always felt that way. Even when I'm not "depressed" as some would say."

It's strange. Usually I don't actually want to end things randomly. Most of the time I just want to cut for absolutely no reason. I just want to see it...  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Dansen Squeekerz:</b>" It's strange. Usually I don't actually want to end things randomly. Most of the time I just want to cut for absolutely no reason. I just want to see it...   "</blockquote>




I do too and it scares me.

Quoting HopingforaMiracle:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Dansen Squeekerz:</b>" It's strange. Usually I don't actually ... [snip!] ... I just want to cut for absolutely no reason. I just want to see it...   "</blockquote> I do too and it scares me."

It doesn't even scare me...  

<blockquote><b>Quoting Dansen Squeekerz:</b>" It doesn't even scare me...  "</blockquote>




Thy told me its normal to have suicidal thoughts. Everyone does apparently. It still scares me.