I am totally mind smu*rfed right now... *BG secrets*

Omg, where do I even start?  
I am going to try and make a super long story as short as possible. DH used to be a horrible alcoholic, to an extent he still is. He stops drinking, than starts, than stops... Any time he gets really bad with drinking he gets down right evil. He does things he would never do sober. One of those things is, for lack of a better term, sleep "rape". Meaning he will climb on top of me in a deep sleep and start trying to have VERY rough sex with me. Biting, slapping, choking type smurf to the point it hurts. I usually have to smack the smurf out of him to wake him up at which point he looks at me like "WTF?" and has no memory of what happened. This brings us to last night. After a night of drinking he got in to bed with me. I co-sleep with DD who is 9 months old. I told him to get out but he refused and eventually I fell back asleep. I kept getting woke up to DH grabbing at me and trying to kiss me in his sleep and I just kept pushing him off and rolling over. I ended up waking up to DH grabbing at and trying to kiss DD in his sleep. I jumped up, grabbed the baby and started smacking the smurf out of him until he woke up, with no memory of what happened. I am hurt. I am livid. I am disgusted. I want him out. He obviously has an alcohol problem that he needs to fix before I am willing to talk to him again. What do I do ladies? I am so freaked out right now. I want to hurt him so bad...  

Leave until he accepts help. Does he not want any?

Get your baby away from him!! His ass needs help.

Omg. He needs to leave or you do with the baby while he gets help.

Can you not stay somewhere else until he gets his crap together and gets help? I'm sorry you have to go through that mama, that is just pathetic.

Honestly I would have beaten the smurf out of him, and called the police.
Leave him, that's unacceptable.

Tell him he needs to get help or get out. That is absolutely disgusting behavior.

Oh dear  Is baby OK? I hope he didn't do anything to her like has to you when in this state of mind/drunkeness. If I were in your shoes, I'd get DD checked out just to make sure nothing happened in the time you were asleep. As I was reading this post, I kept thinking about your DD and how unsafe it is for her to be in the bed too. And then you said what I feared. Please don't be around this guy.

He needs intensive in-patient rehabilitation.

And you need to take your child and leave.

leave. he needs counseling. that is a terrible problem. do not go back until he has been to therapy and is not doing stuff like that anymore. i think you should go to some of the sessions as well, so you can voice your concerns and tell what has happened, since he doesn't remember it. but, until then, do not be there.

Tell him to leave and don't come back till he has help. If he doesn't I'd pack up and stay will relatives till he fixes things. I have a friend who's husband would sometimes try to have sex with her while he was sleeping and wouldn't remember a thing the next day. But the part about your baby is extra unsettling.

Leave. Leave now. Family, friends, shelter. Wherever. You have to get your child away now. filing something with the police might be in order.

This is smurfing disgusting & idk how you can even blame alcohol for that... Really?  

Kick him out.

Tell him he needs to sober up for good, if you ever have any chance of being a real family again.

Quoting £egendary £ex:" This is smurfing disgusting & idk how you can even blame alcohol for that... Really?  "

sounds like an excuse. It's making me cringe.