Shooting myself in the foot over this...

I've never experienced anything like this, never thought I would have to. My first pregnancy was smooth sailing, no complications. Why would this one be any different? Sunday, the day af was due and no sign of her showing I just had a gut feeling that I needed to test (dh and I recently started trying for #2) the first one was really faint so I took another awhile later again really faint. Together we agreed they were inconclusive and decided to go for digital, which came up pregnant clear as day. We were so excited!! So excited we decided to tell his family when we were all together on Xmas eve the next day. Why not right? We told everybody with ds right away and had no problems why would this be different? Everybody was thrilled for us. We decided to tell my family the following weekend when we got together for Xmas so made sure his family promised not to say anything to anyone. Then came Xmas morning, the bleeding started, really light at first I thought no big deal it's probably normal this early for my body to get ready for another baby. As the day progressed the bleeding got heavier with decent sized clots. I tried to keep my mind calm until I could get ahold of the dr. The next day I went in and got my blood drawn and waited for tomorrow for the results. The nurse called me yesterday with the news. "It does look like you had a miscarriage, you don't need to come back for more blood work but she will need to see you next week for a follow up." Devastated, but expected. Either way you're never really prepared for how it hits you emotionally. All I can keep thinking about is WHY I have to test WHY couldn't I just wait it out a couple days to see if af would rear her ugly face. If i would've just waited I would've never known and thought I had just gotten period. Ugh merry Christmas to me! :'(

I had a miscarriage last Christmas so I know how smurffy that feels ON TOP of losing a baby.

I'm very sorry for your loss honey.

Thank you.. Just really sucks   guess I should just be thankful and grateful I do have my ds. And if its meant to be it'll happen eventually for another, but it does t hurt any less

Quoting Alyssa Miller:" Thank you.. Just really sucks   guess I should just be thankful and grateful I do have my ds. And if its meant to be it'll happen eventually for another, but it does t hurt any less"

It hurts, yeah you have another child, I have 2 others but it doesn't making losing another hurt any less.
Just take your time and grieve as long as needed. It WILL happen for you   I mean you had one child, and got pregnant so you KNOW it's possible.
Don't stress. I had to wait 2 years for this pregnancy and 2 heart breaks within that time, it WILL happen.

I'm sorry, mama.  
I lost my first son during the holidays over 10 years ago and I still get emotional about it sometimes.
Like the pp said, give yourself time to grieve and no matter how someone thinks you should feel, your feelings are valid. Be sure to take some time out for you too.
*hugs*

I'm sorry for your loss.
I lost my baby the day after christmas this year i was six weeks so i know how you feel. Again sorry for your loss