re: 5th loss

Quoting justanothamotha:"The one thing I did do before I had my older son was I finally got to where I could accept it for what ti was & just be grateful for each day I was pregnant & each day I got to spend with my baby, even if we weren't going to get tomorrow. They still touched my life in beautiful ways & I am glad to have been on the journey even if it's a painful one."

That is really a good way of dealing with the uncertain agony that comes with each pregnancy. Thank you so much for posting this. I'm going to try very hard to remind myself of this daily when/if I become pregnant again.

Quoting Amelia Margaret:" It may be comforting for you, but for most women suffering infertility that really is an awful thing ... [snip!] ... me once and although I'm not a violent person, I seriously contemplated just how good it would feel to punch her in the face."

Well I didn't mean it that way and I apologize if it sounded bad.

Quoting had beautiful baby boy 9.:" Well I didn't mean it that way and I apologize if it sounded bad."

Now you know.  

i am not offended by any of the comments I know you are all truly trying to be supportive. I do believe in God and I truly believe he has a plan for me and even though I do not fully understand it at times I do turn to my faith to guide me. Each loss if different and I do struggle through them, you never forget it. I don't know why these things keep happening, I cherish each and every pregnancy and pray to God each day that he taeks care of my little peanut, he just needs them sooner than later, I know when I go up to Heaven I will have a whole brood waiting for me and I will get to see all their beautiful faces and hear them call me mommy for the first time. It is extremely painful and I know that there are reasons these are not successful, but it has changed me as a human being. I appreciate the little things more, take time to enjoy my family and spend quality time with individual family members when I can. I try to find the humor in all things, this helps me along my journey in life. I appreciate all the outpouring of support from all you ladies! i know some of you have been in my shoes and now have beaustiful families, which gives me hope! I am lucky that I get to work with children everyday and that does help me, I get to help shape their younf minds and hopefully be someonw in their life that they may look back at one day and think about.

Again, I am not offended by anything anyone has said, I know you are all trying to be supportive.