I want a baby. I have for a long time now. TTC has been difficult, and we really haven't been trying the past few months because of the stress. It made having sex not fun for us anymore.
I've been trying to not think about it. We're planning on getting married next summer. Planning on getting my dress and other awesome things to be done. I'm supposed to go visit my BG BFF this summer once her priss arrives. But my mind apparently doesn't care. I'm constantly dreaming about having a baby. When it all comes down to it, I've been dreaming about BFing. I was unsuccessful with my daughter, and I want to so bad. Then last night, I dreamed that I had to work or something, so I was self expressing into a container so that it could be used later while I was at work and couldn't actually BF.
What the hell.... This isn't helping me mentally. Does anyone else have dreams like this, or is it just me? lol