Quoting ♥ darah ♥:" I have met with a couple but it doesn't help. I don't feel like this will ever end. I will always be ... [snip!] ... I could go back. since I can't I will just keep discouraging other women from being taken advantage of by baby hungry people."
Maybe you can become an advocate for educating women on adoption choices? I know you're getting into the pp doula thing, and maybe you can do this too. Like, be the woman's voice for an adoption, and make sure it's what she wants and how she wants. Idk much about adoption, but it might help you feel better.