Happy smurfing holidays to me..

I've already had a hard time enjoying myself and being happy during the holiday season this year. BD and I split and I'm still having a really hard time with it all.. I feel smurffy being alone, having my family split up and being pregnant with our second, I feel awful that my daughter has to deal with split holidays now and everything..but I've been holding it together and coping for the most part, then last night I see a picture his aunt posted of the whole family on Christmas Eve.. His girlfriend included.. That tore me up so bad..and just now I checked the mail and his mom sent me one of their damn Christmas cards that had BD and DD in it this year.. It just sent me completely over the edge. I just feel completely alone and replaced, like I was neve apart of it, like I never even mattered..and now I can't stop crying, I feel so silly but this has me completely broken down, I should be in it. I should be apart of it and my family should be happy spending Christmas together.. How can I get myself past this? It's terrible

Aww hun sorry you are feeling that way sending you a big warm hug.

I understand how you feel. My BD got married (quick) after we split and his wife is always posting pics with her and my kids saying their hers. After a while (we've been split 3 years now) you'll get use to it and realize your happier alone. Unfortunately the only thing that works is time.
Merry Christmas ((hugs))

This must be especially difficult for you being pregnant. I'm sorry you're going through this; please hang in there. It does get easier/better, I promise. This is a rough time of year to be dealing with all of it.