Wanting a baby

I have two angel babies and a daughter who is 3 months old. Ever since everything that happened with my first pregnancy I have wanted to be pregnant. Not so much to have babies, but to be pregnant, to have that pregnancy back. If I make sense? Does anybody relate to this? Will it ever go away? I did want to TTC with SO but I had a good think to myself and realized it's probably not a good idea to get pregnant just to fill that need I feel, because realisticly I can't have another baby any time soon. I wish I could turn back time and change how things happened with my first pregnancy. I wouldn't be so messed up right now. I've tried talking to a counselor but that only helped for a while. I'm taking anti depressants which stop the crying but don't change how I feel about pregnancy and being pregnant. What is wrong with me? :/

<blockquote><b>Quoting Ellie Shikari:</b>" I have two angel babies and a daughter who is 3 months old. Ever since everything that happened with ... [snip!] ... depressants which stop the crying but don't change how I feel about pregnancy and being pregnant. What is wrong with me? :/"</blockquote>




It's very hard losing a baby & I always think about mine & wish I could be pregnant again.
I think it'll heal with time but it's never easy. Good luck!

It's definitely got better than how I was before. But it's four years on and I'm kinda like ooookay when is this gonna end... And thank you

With each loss became a even more wanting of a baby. I light candles when I'm really thinking about my babies. I've named then, even tho no I didn't KNOW the sex. it helped bring some peace for my babes.

You're not weird or crazy for feeling the way you do but it's a good thing that you can also realize that after pregnancy comes another baby you'll have to take care of & you said you couldn't right now. It's probably best that you don't but I understand how you feel; loosing a child is extremely difficult & when I lost 1 last year, I was pretty messed up emotionally for a long while. It's hard but only time can heal you hon. Sorry there's not much else to be done  

With each loss became a even more wanting of a baby. I light candles when I'm really thinking about my babies. I've named then, even tho no I didn't KNOW the sex. it helped bring some peace for my babes.

Thanks ladies. Yeah, I know I need to wait a long time for another. I have named the first April but not the second, yet.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Ellie Shikari:</b>" Thanks ladies. Yeah, I know I need to wait a long time for another. I have named the first April but not the second, yet."</blockquote>




Were they twins?

& you're welcome & not alone & def not crazy.

Quoting Miss. Tiff:" <blockquote><b>Quoting Ellie Shikari:</b>" Thanks ladies. Yeah, I know I need to wait ... [snip!] ... first April but not the second, yet."</blockquote> Were they twins? & you're welcome & not alone & def not crazy."

No but the most recent was december 7th and I haven't really got my head round that yet. The first was 2008

My first three losses were early and for those I can say I most definitely mourned the loss of the pregnancy more than the baby. I hate the way that sounds but it's the truth because we'd been trying for years. My last loss was at almost 16 weeks though and it was very different. I don't just want the pregnancy back, I want her back.

Its a void that will never be filled, a yearning to get back what was taken from you.
I relate to your post I lost my son when he was 1 month old then a late term miscariage, followed by my three children (two girls and a boy) I still didn't feel whole or complete after them, so after three more losses (1 ectopic and 2 miscarriages) I feel even more lost, I'm not trying to replace a gap but rather fill a void I am missing  

I am sorry you have been through that a loss is hard no matter how small. I mean with my sone I know why he died I have hundreds of pictures and got to hold him, but with my M/Cs and ectopic there was nothing I was left feeling let down, depressed and a failure.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Ellie Shikari:</b>" No but the most recent was december 7th and I haven't really got my head round that yet. The first was 2008"</blockquote>



I see. I'm very sorry ! my first loss was also in 2008 my recent was Oct
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