Quoting Smokey_Taboo:" Where did you begin?? I dont even know where to start, every time I open my mouth all that keeps coming ... [snip!] ... crossed my mind but just recently they have come back never in a million years did I ever think I would feel this broken.. "
I wish I could tell you where to start hun. It's different for everyone as we all deal with these emotions in different ways.
For me I needed to focus on ME and nobody else. So I started doing things for myself. Going to the gym, spending time at my friends horse farm scooping up horse pop lol.... (It was relaxing) I found songs that made me cry so hard so I could get it all out and I felt so much better after. I read a few books. Not really related to MY situation but about the loss of a child or something and it helped me realize that I'm not the only one out there who is dealing with pain on a daily basis.
Is there something that you enjoy doing by yourself or for yourself? Thats where I'd start!!
I think the fact that you came here looking for advice is a start as well.
There are images and memories that I WILL NEVER be able to erase from my memory. I've tucked them away though. I've shared them with a very very select few people. Your "friends" at home may not understand what you are feeling. Then again, they might. So tread lightly with them. Those who want to be there for you will.
And Melissa is right, I am pretty awsome... ha ha ha
What I'm going to tell you may be weird. BUT... another thing that helped me was being there for women like you who also went through it.