re: I'm having my abortion on 12.21.12.

<blockquote><b>Quoting Ҿcɧơ:</b>" I'm on my way. Leaving now. I have lots of crystals packed, along with sage and patchouli incense to ... [snip!] ... I'm doing whats right for everyone. Yes. I'm having an abortion on 12.21.12. love and light ♥&☼~"</blockquote>




Oh I'm glad you got into day. Good luck!!!

Sending lots of love your way <3

The physical pain doesn't last long, hang in there

<blockquote><b>Quoting Ҿcɧơ:</b>" I'm on my way. Leaving now. I have lots of crystals packed, along with sage and patchouli incense to ... [snip!] ... I'm doing whats right for everyone. Yes. I'm having an abortion on 12.21.12. love and light ♥&☼~"</blockquote>



<3 <3

Good luck to you, hope everything went smoothly and you're healing quickly!

Thanksssss so much everyone, everything went really well actually. I ended up going by myself because the only person that offered to take me was my dad. And I said okay to that for like TWO SECONDS and then was like ....okaymaybenot.
lol.
So I told him that I just didn't want the experience to go that way...I wanted to take care of it on my own and I knew that if I can last 72 hours in transitional labor and still give birth vaginally without any problems, being how small I am!!!~ I think I can do anything if I want.
So I did.
I had to drive 3 hours there and 3 hours back. It was the most driving I have ever done by myself in my life. That was really the hardest part of the whole thing.
Okay so I think you ladies will think this is funny like I did. My freaking doctor who did my abortion looked like Santa Claus. No kidding. I thought it was the funniest, most ironic thing. Especially because of this specific day that I happened to get this procedure done on. Everything was just lining up and I ended up having kind of a spiritual experience through the whole thing. The crystals did help a lot! I actually wrote down which ones I brought and why I specifically brought them. I write everything in my journal, so I'll just retype it for ya'll.

Lepilolite~ emotional healing, serenity, relaxation, stress relief
Agate~ overcoming guilt, growth, healing, guardian angel, stress
Rose Quartz~ hope, clarity
Hematite magnets~ pain relief (tape these to your back for menstrual cramps or even in labor)
Self Healed Quartz~ surgery recovery
Danburite~anxiety
Tourmilated Quartz~clear thinking
Pyrite~commitment
Clear apophyllite~ courage
Moonstone~feminine power


They didn't actually let me take my bag of crystals in with me, for security precautions   But I did cleanse them in the car and sat them on my lap while I drove.
It was funny...on the way back I drove up to this van, and I noticed it had a sticker on it that says "I dig crystals". (this isn't THAT uncommon in AR) So I drove up right next to him and pulled out my apophyllite crystal cluster, which is my favorite crystal in the world. I waved it at him and smiled and he smiled back and waved. It was a good little connection we had there between the crystals, lol. Crystal people just seem to know each other ;).
So it was pretty cool that I decided to bring those. They made the experience a lot more pleasant and I was more prepared I think.

As far as pain goes, what I told the nurses and doctor was that it was absolutely NOTHING compared to 72 hours of labor. Lol. It really didn't hurt as bad when it was done as it does now that I'm laying in bed trying to rub my swollen uterus... it feels really hard and it hurts  
I get my script tomorrow though so hopefully I'll just be laying in bed doped up and not feeling anything. My mom is going to keep Aerilynn tonight and tomorrow so I can rest. I don't like sleeping without my baby though, especially after going through that. I'm kinda wanting to love on her right now. I'm very thankful for my daughter, I am SO GLAD I had her. I considered abortion very briefly when I was pregnant with her but I of course shook that out of my brain because I knew I was supposed to have her.

Anyway I won't bore ya'll with any more of the details...everything went fine and I had a really good trip. (except when my shot they gave me afterwards wore off 1 hour before I got home...)
I'm just going to be trying to rest for a few days. Probably going to be BabyGaga-ing it up.  

Quoting Ҿcɧơ:" Thanksssss so much everyone, everything went really well actually. I ended up going by myself because ... [snip!] ... before I got home...) I'm just going to be trying to rest for a few days. Probably going to be BabyGaga-ing it up.  "

lol @ your doctor looking like santa claus!! i hope youre feeling well!

glad it went well, rest up   x x x

Im glad that it went well!! Im happy for you! <3

I really am happy about it too. I was very afraid I'd feel guilty, but I don't. Just relieved. I just wish I had someone to take care of me a bit, lol. I feel like lying in bed and being brought water and food for at least today. I'm quite sore and tired. But I do have my meds now though, which are making me feel good  

Here is a pretty iffy question~
Has anyone ever named their fetus they decided to abort? I feel like it would be more normal to name a miscarried baby, but I don't know if it would be kind of strange or ...I don't know...
I just feel like I shouldn't think too little of this experience. I feel like I at least need to recognize and remember his existence...

Quoting Ҿcɧơ:" Here is a pretty iffy question~ Has anyone ever named their fetus they decided to abort? I feel like ... [snip!] ... like I shouldn't think too little of this experience. I feel like I at least need to recognize and remember his existence..."

I named mine. Taylor Lynn. She was a girl. She was the only girl I had...

Quoting Ҿcɧơ:" I really am happy about it too. I was very afraid I'd feel guilty, but I don't. Just relieved. I just ... [snip!] ... water and food for at least today. I'm quite sore and tired. But I do have my meds now though, which are making me feel good  "

That is seriously great! Im happy for you. You did this for the best reason.

Quoting Ҿcɧơ:" I really am happy about it too. I was very afraid I'd feel guilty, but I don't. Just relieved. I just ... [snip!] ... water and food for at least today. I'm quite sore and tired. But I do have my meds now though, which are making me feel good  "

That is seriously great! Im happy for you. You did this for the best reason.

Quoting Yurvette [♥]:" That is seriously great! Im happy for you. You did this for the best reason. "

Thanks girl. Its times like these that I love being a member of BG, lol. Ya'll have all made me feel much more at peace about all of this, not like my family has. They say they don't judge me for it, that I did the right thing, but they still have this look in their eyes that I can see clearly. They aren't seeing me how they tell me they do. They're judging and I see right through them.
But of course they haven't been in any situation remotely close to the one I was just in...and kind of still am. I just have one less thing to worry about now.

I kind of want to name him something relating to the day which I had to let go of him. A mayan name...a planet name...a name of a galaxy or a moon...I don't know I am going to research and choose.
I'm glad I'm not being weird wanting to name my aborted fetus, lol. I'm just not heartless, I feel like I need to respect his short existence
<3.

Quoting Ҿcɧơ:" Thanks girl. Its times like these that I love being a member of BG, lol. Ya'll have all made me feel ... [snip!] ... weird wanting to name my aborted fetus, lol. I'm just not heartless, I feel like I need to respect his short existence <3. "

You are not weird. I consider mine an angel baby also. Ive gotten bashed for naming and considering it an angel baby. <3 You can always PM me if you would like.

Quoting Ҿcɧơ:" Here is a pretty iffy question~ Has anyone ever named their fetus they decided to abort? I feel like ... [snip!] ... like I shouldn't think too little of this experience. I feel like I at least need to recognize and remember his existence..."

I named mine Izzy Grace. The evil nurse told me at 11 weeks it was a girl....I call bullsmurf that she could tell...but I went with it and call her Izzy. I don't regret it to this day, I'm glad to hear you don't either. Lots of healing vibes your way!