Post-whoring tonight, but...

I've got a lot on my mind tonight. Stupid hormones have my mood changing every 5 seconds, I swear. I can't wait til this smurf evens out.

Anyway, I have a question for anyone with an eating disorder. How do you deal? My eating disorder is very seriously depressing me right now. I eat because I know I have to, because I'm nursing my baby. But I have to force myself to eat, I have no appetite at all. I have no desire for food. I hardly think about food at all, I have to set reminders on my phone to tell me to eat something. Otherwise I just won't eat anything all day long. I hate myself for this smurf, honestly. I feel like a failure, like I should be able to just... eat. Like a normal person. It makes me feel like a bad mom. I don't know why, but it does. How do you cope with this?

I don't cope. I have to remind myself to feed her. I barely eat.