have been for an assessment at the mental health dept, it was very thorough and i was brutally honest, so i feel relieved that it's moving in the right direction. was a bit worried they might keep me in!
he's discussing all my details with his team, and will get back to me in the new year with the appropriate treatment he said it would be mid-january, so it's rather a wait, but that's how it is on the NHS, its' not quick, but it's free and i am very VERY lucky to receive all this care i could NOT afford it in a million years! 2 abortions this year with full general anaesthesia, 6 weeks of counselling, then this psychiatric treatment, i must have cost the NHS at least £2k already *blushface* i will endeavour to make it worth it and be a completely stable and well and happy mom for my little girl and my little boy <3 and get the relationship back in my marriage to how it was before and be a happy family again! and not do something stupid :-/
feel relieved to set the ball rolling i want to get over this!