re: I was supposed to have my abortion today...

Quoting Ҿcɧơ:" Everyone keeps asking me that. Of course I have. I've been speaking with Planned Parenthood for weeks ... [snip!] ... but thats how it is, lol.)...basically I don't want to get to know my child and then not have him. (yeh I know its a him)"

sounds like you know what you want and need to do. Reschedule the appointment and find someone to go with you. You may need someone to drive you home and someone there for support girl. Good luck. i know its hard but you can do this. I too could not give up my child for adoption. if i went through the pregnancy i would keep the baby. The world is over-populating (.. no offense to anyone)

The pain is probably anxiety. You have a lot of stress going on right now. If if you go alone, you could always nap in the car afterwards until you feel better then drive home.

Quoting Ҿcɧơ:" Yea they told me since I don't want the sedation I can still drive myself. But I don't want to do that...I ... [snip!] ... I don't know if its going to start affecting me more at any point...I need to go to a doctor and ask WTF is going on with that."

Idk if this would be it, but could it be an ulcer? Stress can cause ulcers.

I wish you the very best of luck. <3

Quoting OneLoveMama:" sounds like you know what you want and need to do. Reschedule the appointment and find someone to go ... [snip!] ... for adoption. if i went through the pregnancy i would keep the baby. The world is over-populating (.. no offense to anyone)"

Thats why this is the most responsible thing to do. That is the BIG reason why I cannot adopt. And the emotional tear it will leave in my soul.

I wish the father would just stop being a poon and come with me. I guess I'm going to have to ask him. I don't really want anyone else coming with me...or driving me.

I would take you  
I can't believe the dad won't go.. would he rather have you continue with the pregnancy instead.? Aug

Quoting Uncle Obama's Banana:" Idk if this would be it, but could it be an ulcer? Stress can cause ulcers."

Nah I don't think so, the pain has moved twice.

Quoting GL♣05/08/2013:" I would take you   I can't believe the dad won't go.. would he rather have you continue with the pregnancy instead.? Aug"

No its definitely not that. He just doesn't want to be involved in the process at all. He's being a coward about it. Like saying, " I'll help pay for it, and I will support you on your decision, but I have too much else going on to deal with that too".
...like he even has as much going on as I do.
He's pissing me off without even seeing him.

Quoting Ҿcɧơ:" No its definitely not that. He just doesn't want to be involved in the process at all. He's being a ... [snip!] ... going on to deal with that too". ...like he even has as much going on as I do. He's pissing me off without even seeing him. "

Thats enough to piss anyone off. Especially when you are the one doing everything and has to go through it.

I think your guy should freaking go with you. Tell him you're had to reschedule and needing someone with you isn't an option. to me, he had a responsibility at least to do this much.

Quoting Yurvette [♥]:" Thats enough to piss anyone off. Especially when you are the one doing everything and has to go through it. "

....mmmmhm!
I never bitch at him. Maybe its time. lol.

Quoting Ҿcɧơ:" ....mmmmhm! I never bitch at him. Maybe its time. lol. "

yeah. lol. I think its time too.

Saw your other post, your cousin is a nosey smurf.

This is a very personal decision and she had no right to tell your mom!

Thanks so much everyone...I guess I'm going to try to get him to go with me. And I HAVE to get a car battery. There is no other option on that one. I'm just ready to be over with this, and hopefully maybe the pain will go away once there is this one less stressor on my shoulders.
...or uterus.
But IDK...I've spent way too long NOT having him be MY OWN. It makes sense to me that its finally actually causing PAIN. I hope it goes away...

Quoting Ҿcɧơ:" Nah I don't think so, the pain has moved twice. "

  Well I hope you figure out what is causing it.