Quoting Rae812:" Yes, you can pm me any time. If anyone has any questions feel free to ask... i was also hospitalized ... [snip!] ... that makes me feel hopeless and a lost cause.. but today im fine and thats what i have to do is just take one day at a time.."
Do you have a specific diagnosis, hun?
If you're having trouble finding help, I would try contacting MHA (here's the link to the one in New Jersey, it is a national organization: http://www.mhanj.org/
) and see what resources they have available to you.
They do a lot of advocacy, help you find treatment and the one that was near me also offered a lot of support groups, art therapy, etc.