Going in to be induced tonight

and I could scream. My nerves are shot and I've been super depressed. This should be a happy time for us but I feel awful. Everything is getting on my nerves, from my family members and their last minute decisions to come over to my house today of all days... (I go in at 7 tonight to be induced) to my house not being near clean enough... to other things.. I don't know.
The school shootings have me so heartbroken for the families of those kids and anybody in that community that I feel like I'm not allowed to be happy.
My anxiety is through the roof today. I had PPD after I had my son and I'm afraid this is going to happen again. I'm breastfeeding this time so I'm curious if I should even ask about being put on Zoloft. ( I was on it before I got pregnant and decided to taper off of it for the pregnancy).

I want to just sleep the rest of the day away. My mood is affecting everyone's in this house. Did you guys totally stress out when it came down to the wire of being induced?

Don't feel obligated to entertain. Go to bed and sleep if thats what you want to do.

I was always just really, really, really ready to be unpregnant before my inductions.

Yes. I'm emotional about delivering mainly because I'll be doing it completely alone. We don't have family so we don't have a babysitter for our two older daughters. My husband has to stay home with them. I don't have friends so I'll be laboring through induction completely alone for the third time (hubby was deployed with the first two). I'm not looking forward to it.

Quoting Kimber-lily:" Don't feel obligated to entertain. Go to bed and sleep if thats what you want to do."

This.

I was informed about an hour before that I was going to have a c-section. I wish I could have caught a nap, finished cleaning, anything. I was so UNPREPARED. Mentally, emotionally, physically. So, do whatever you want to do. Enjoy your last few hours of being pregnant and just know you'll be holding your baby soon!

Do not feel like you have to entertain them. Rest and IF you do need the medicine to stay well for your children... that'll be ok. It was a decision I had to make, it was hard, but DD doesn't seem to mind that she didn't get booby for more than a few months.

Off topic... I MISS chambersburg

Relax and don't try to be a hostess, go to sleep if that's what you want to do. You're about to have a baby and if your family can't understand that well that's not your problem.
And if you want to breastfeed you can, even with PPD. I am still breastfeeding my 23 month old and she was still exclusively breastfed while being on meds for almost a year for severe PPD. It can be done. I was started on a very low dose and if it needed to be increased it was done so in very small increments until I found a dose that worked for me. It stayed pretty low. Good luck and try to relax, you're going to meet your little one so soon!